Ways to die

[Tictoc77]

Please help is there anyway to die that involves poisoning over period of time. Tried overdoses over a period of days but that didnt work. I cant do some grand gesture I have 3 kids but know full well that I dont want to be here anymore. I know theres no easy way to go but just done had enough and need a get out plan that works for me!

 

[Swedish Equality]

Is SN possible for you to obtain? Poisoning has around 1% of lethality and imo it's better to look for other methods. I've tried poisoning once , was only able too hurt myself.

 

[Tictoc77]

Is SN possible for you to obtain? Poisoning has around 1% of lethality and imo it's better to look for other methods. I've tried poisoning once , was only able too hurt myself.

I've tried looking into SN and not sure whether I can or not, I get paid tomorrow so from there would be able to investigate further but seems to be long delivery times, I dont want to be impulsive but at same time cant keep this dragging on anymore

 

[randomz]

What are your reasons to CTB (commit suicide in our lingo here)? Have you tried everything else possible to make yourelf feel better about life already? If you don't mind you can always share your story in this forum and we will be glad to listen to it and offer advice to help you. I hope things work out for you :)

 

[Tictoc77]

I have had mental health issues since I was 8, I'm now 43. I am back with the crisis team and since 2016 have been bounced from recovery team to crisis team. I have 3 children but their father was abusive and our marriage ended in his arrest but he was not prosecuted. I had a breakdown in October where I took 3 large overdoses of sertraline and he got back involved as support to the children but now practically lives at my house and I get no time or space but he comes and goes when he pleases. Due to my decline in mental health social services back involved and they are looking at coercive abuse and want police back involved but if that happens as last time it makes life hell for me. I have depression anxiety eating disorders self harm and this emotionally unstable thing which they are now trying to label me with but at 43 it's a bit past it to teach an old dog new tricks. I repeat this cycle where I tell them cant cope falling apart, brain messed up not sleeping images in head intrusive thoughts etcetcetc they say they will help but do nothing and I end up OD ing because even self harm csnt cut all the pain out my mind and body at the moment. My overdoses in october where the worst they've been and this time I cant come back it has to be final,I've caused to much pain for my kids with my mental health and things happening I just want it all to be over I'm beyond help!!

 

[randomz]

I have had mental health issues since I was 8, I'm now 43. I am back with the crisis team and since 2016 have been bounced from recovery team to crisis team. I have 3 children but their father was abusive and our marriage ended in his arrest but he was not prosecuted. I had a breakdown in October where I took 3 large overdoses of sertraline and he got back involved as support to the children but now practically lives at my house and I get no time or space but he comes and goes when he pleases. Due to my decline in mental health social services back involved and they are looking at coercive abuse and want police back involved but if that happens as last time it makes life hell for me. I have depression anxiety eating disorders self harm and this emotionally unstable thing which they are now trying to label me with but at 43 it's a bit past it to teach an old dog new tricks. I repeat this cycle where I tell them cant cope falling apart, brain messed up not sleeping images in head intrusive thoughts etcetcetc they say they will help but do nothing and I end up OD ing because even self harm csnt cut all the pain out my mind and body at the moment. My overdoses in october where the worst they've been and this time I cant come back it has to be final,I've caused to much pain for my kids with my mental health and things happening I just want it all to be over I'm beyond help!!

I am sorry for what you went through, yours is really a hard life. But having endured untill now and raising your children alone (even worse than alone - with a partner who is more trouble than help) proves you are a strong individual who can take the hits from life. And I salute you for that. You are a winner in my book, and I am sure your kids can see and feel what you are going through and areappreciate your efforts and sacrifices.
I personally find the saying "you can't teach an old dog new tricks" to be maybe right about dogs but wrong about humans - a human can learn anything if he opens his heart to it, and I believe you can open your heart.
I hope everything works out for you :)