In2TheVoid
Pathological
- Feb 18, 2021
- 75
I'm not sure if anyone else has experienced this, but recently I have started watching fairly gruesome videos of people dying online (through an archive of reddit's /r/watchpeopledie/). I never would have watched videos like this before my own life fell apart so catastrophically.
I think in a way I am trying to make myself believe that there is no God and no afterlife (because what type of God would allow such horror?) and to desensitize myself to death.
On the other hand I find that some of the videos make me feel better about my situation ("at least I'm not likely to get captured by ISIS").
I have N, and these videos aren't related to any one method (and I do steer clear of the most graphic ones).
Anyone else have a similar experience or habit?
I think in a way I am trying to make myself believe that there is no God and no afterlife (because what type of God would allow such horror?) and to desensitize myself to death.
On the other hand I find that some of the videos make me feel better about my situation ("at least I'm not likely to get captured by ISIS").
I have N, and these videos aren't related to any one method (and I do steer clear of the most graphic ones).
Anyone else have a similar experience or habit?