instormdrains
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- Oct 29, 2025
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Tw sexual abuse incest
Not too long ago I realized my brother molested me on different occasions when I was 7 or 8 years old. I cant remember when my babysitter did it but I was 7-12. I remembered them doing it but it never really clicked that what they did to me was inappropriate until February. These events are probably why I subconsciously became really depressed when I was a kid and then as a late teen. I was so disgusted when all my memories came back that I was going to kill my brother. I would hear him on speaker when my parents called him and I would be so extremely angry and disgusted hearing his voice. If he lived with me i probably would have killed him since i wouldn't have time to process it. I still think about it but I won't go that far. Murder is not okay.
Im planing to confront him when he comes home from spring break and im gonna ask him for his device passwords to make sure he isn't a pedo. I pray that he isn't but hes into a lot of weird shit so im gonna delete all of it off his devices. (unless its cp thats going to cops) he abused me because of his porn addiction so if he keeps indulging in it hes only going to become more depraved. If he doesnt let me go through his stuff im probably going to beat the shit out of him until he does. Im not trying to sound like some super cool alpha male that can bench 405 btw. Im not a violent person and i dont want it to come down to that. Hes also skinny fat, always on discord and doesnt know how to fight so respectfully he won't win. I was teaching him how to workout and he could only do 15 pushups (no shame if people are out of shape but if your a molestor idc)
I volunteer around kids and I want to be a teacher so it breaks my heart seeing all these kids that I love thinking about how people take advantage of them. Being around kids probably triggered my memory.
He really did fuck up a big part of my life and now I struggle to sleep. He used to tell me to face the wall and close my eyes while hed master bate and id just stare at the shadows of the window blinds when the sun shined through them. He'd make me watch porn with him. My babysitter touched me in the shower and even though he never touched me I feel so much more hate and betrayal because it was incestuous. Is this a bad way to confront him. Mercy is always better than revenge so I dont want to fight him but he willdefinitely refuse. Please help and give me ideas on what to do. Not trying to glorify this or sound cool very ashamed of myself for wanting to hurt someone
Not too long ago I realized my brother molested me on different occasions when I was 7 or 8 years old. I cant remember when my babysitter did it but I was 7-12. I remembered them doing it but it never really clicked that what they did to me was inappropriate until February. These events are probably why I subconsciously became really depressed when I was a kid and then as a late teen. I was so disgusted when all my memories came back that I was going to kill my brother. I would hear him on speaker when my parents called him and I would be so extremely angry and disgusted hearing his voice. If he lived with me i probably would have killed him since i wouldn't have time to process it. I still think about it but I won't go that far. Murder is not okay.
Im planing to confront him when he comes home from spring break and im gonna ask him for his device passwords to make sure he isn't a pedo. I pray that he isn't but hes into a lot of weird shit so im gonna delete all of it off his devices. (unless its cp thats going to cops) he abused me because of his porn addiction so if he keeps indulging in it hes only going to become more depraved. If he doesnt let me go through his stuff im probably going to beat the shit out of him until he does. Im not trying to sound like some super cool alpha male that can bench 405 btw. Im not a violent person and i dont want it to come down to that. Hes also skinny fat, always on discord and doesnt know how to fight so respectfully he won't win. I was teaching him how to workout and he could only do 15 pushups (no shame if people are out of shape but if your a molestor idc)
I volunteer around kids and I want to be a teacher so it breaks my heart seeing all these kids that I love thinking about how people take advantage of them. Being around kids probably triggered my memory.
He really did fuck up a big part of my life and now I struggle to sleep. He used to tell me to face the wall and close my eyes while hed master bate and id just stare at the shadows of the window blinds when the sun shined through them. He'd make me watch porn with him. My babysitter touched me in the shower and even though he never touched me I feel so much more hate and betrayal because it was incestuous. Is this a bad way to confront him. Mercy is always better than revenge so I dont want to fight him but he willdefinitely refuse. Please help and give me ideas on what to do. Not trying to glorify this or sound cool very ashamed of myself for wanting to hurt someone
