Discussion was anyone responsible in making you suicidal?

[schatzbunny]

was anyone responsible in making you suicidal? how so?
now i do acknowledge that at the end of the day we are all responsible of our own actions, but we can't simply ignore people who have broken us or even made us feel life is not worth living. mainly i wanna hear you guys's horrible relationship stories so i dont feel alone in my suffering

 

[Unlucky777]

Yes the traumas and emotional abuse from my last relationship landed me where I am and the only way I see out is CTB. You're not alone in feeling how you feel :)

 

[shutdown.exe]

My aunt and uncle. They've always wished me ill and wanted me dead since I became rich and successful. They burned down my apartment, and later their son stole a large sum of money from me. When my cousin died under unknown circumstances, they accused me of his murder and wanted me to go to prison or die. Damn idiots!

 

[thelostautistic]

Yes but it was combined with my circumstances as well.

 

[zdeweilx]

My parents made me suicidal

 

[scordatura]

Right now, I've only myself to blame. Although, the past definitely hasn't helped. Suppose the worst of it was a really fucked up relationship with someone... he's now in prison. Later I dealt with some really malicious people, heavy screwed my head up. Feels it lead me to be someone I really don't like right now.

 

[impossible_victory]

Maybe maybe not? I really have bad memories and i don't remember my childhood very well. I am mainly responsible because i always feel unwanted. I don't see a future

 

[youpi]

Down the road yes, my uncle, always been the most helpful.. to keep me under his con,trol.
He knows about my plans but he thinks its yet another failure. Lied on hospital bed.

 

[idkwatimdoinghere]

was anyone responsible in making you suicidal? how so?
now i do acknowledge that at the end of the day we are all responsible of our own actions, but we can't simply ignore people who have broken us or even made us feel life is not worth living. mainly i wanna hear you guys's horrible relationship stories so i dont feel alone in my suffering

in every situation i put myself in i just end up wanting to end it all, what people did to me dont matter anymore, something is just wrong with me, and even if i could design my life the way i want it i would be suicidal anyway, my parents, exes, teachers, employers could have contributed in a way but it doesnt matter, i feel like a coin in a jigsaw puzzle, i dont belong anywhere

 

[ThePollinator]

Me myself and I

 

[Useless Idiot]

Yes, its not really a relationship though. Its my parents' son who is responsible. He is like a psychopath. Like a goon. Since he has started being like that, home has become an unbearable hell. He causes trouble everyday. He is too psychopath he even treats parents really badly.
Since he started making home a hell, I started thinking about ctb seriously. I have had regrets and pain before, but I never seriously thought about ctb.

 

[hitagi-crab]

If I had to choose one person, it'd be my mom, but it's been quite some time since I was in contact with her and I've since had many other experiences and difficulties. The trauma I have from my childhood is a through-line in most of my problems, but whether that makes her ultimately responsible... well, I'm not sure.

 

[FuneralCry]

No, I wish to cease existing as a result of being burdened with this terrible, torturous existence that never should had been imposed, to me existence is just the most cruel, dreadful mistake that just causes all this terrible, dreadful harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and for me non-existence is just all that's positive.

For me ceasing to exist would be the positive solution to find peace from the torture of existing, it's just so horrific to me how a human can be tortured in this existence for decades longer just for one to face the agony of old age and for me every second is torture to be conscious, to me existence is the problem, existence is just so evil, all that existence ever does is just torture existing beings, to me the existence of life is the most terrible, devastating tragedy.

 

[sulvumnolo]

It's not fair to blame her. I have bpd and she has every right to move on if that's what best for her. But she was my everything and she did it in a way that hurt so badly. So didn't have to be cruel.

 

[dontletthembribeyou]

I don't blame any particular person, I think I'm just a casualty of late stage capitalism

 

[spiders.in.my.head]

the people behind my childhood traumas. being depressed at such a young age truly fucked me up, and i dont think i can ever be a truly well adjusted, stable person because of it.
some recent events have certainly added to the way i feel, but i think, if i had a more stable mind to begin with, these recent events wouldn't have afftected me nearly as much.

 

[thefarter]

yeah whoever doxxed me actually. yeah :3
i know they won't care when i kms.
but hopefully they won't doxx anyone else in the future
yaaaaay

 

[ifihadnever]

Ironically the very people that brought me into the world....they are long dead now tho. But a lot of damage from others along the way. Unfortunately not being able to recieve the correct healthcare from my Dr is the reason my CBT needs to be imminent and the hell mental health servcies put me through.....