Discussion Was anyone else nervous about being accepted to SS?

[buoy]

I'm thankful to be on here.

When I submitted my account information, I wanted to be transparent; and I do have hope things will be better for me, or that I can help someone else out here. I didn't want to come off as the eype of person that makes this website/resource a necessity.

Was anyone else anxious while your account was pending?

 

[I Can't Say]

Haha oh man, it took me so long to sign up, then it flattened me for three days when I got rejected the first time (because of network rules, not anything nefarious).

 

[buoy]

Oh man, I couldn't imagine getting rejected from here…

Oh what I'm not sad enough?
I'll show you sad, buddy.
lol jkjk

How has your experience changed since being active on this site?

For me idk if I was self harming by reading goodbye threads, getting attached, and perpetuating my feeling; or if I was just reading content that was congruent with how I felt.

This is my first day with an account on the page and I'm staying up all night on this speaking with people, and I feel…. Less bad… idk how to describe, but it's possible hope for better tomorrow.

 

[I Can't Say]

Welcome to the site!

Yeah, I went through a similar lurking phase. I had to pull out of the worst of my depression a bit before I could find the energy to sign up. I was composing some pretty dark stuff in my head before that, but for now at least it's receded into the background. It might come out later, we'll see. I've been more active in Recovery than I thought I would be.

So yes, it sounds like we're on similar trajectories. Maybe things aren't completely terrible?

 

[buoy]

Welcome to the site!

Yeah, I went through a similar lurking phase. I had to pull out of the worst of my depression a bit before I could find the energy to sign up. I was composing some pretty dark stuff in my head before that, but for now at least it's receded into the background. It might come out later, we'll see. I've been more active in Recovery than I thought I would be.

So yes, it sounds like we're on similar trajectories. Maybe things aren't completely terrible?

I'm happy for you and that you dont feel as though you're drowning. I'm glad to have met you and hope to see you around the recovery section soon.

I don't think things are so terrible or so great. Things are things and the only purpose is Experience. All Experience is valuable, even the Experience of total suffering.

 

[Abandoned Character]

Even now sometimes I feel like my values do not align with many here, but such is the nature of a diverse forum. I am glad to have this space to share what is on my mind and read the thoughts of like minded people.

 

[buoy]

Even now sometimes I feel like my values do not align with many here, but such is the nature of a diverse forum. I am glad to have this space to share what is on my mind and read the thoughts of like minded people.

That's more than fair. I think the context of these ideas live in the space where we all know how we wish we were spoken and listened to. As long as ideation or motives aren't force fed and you're respectful/loving, angry people are either lashing out or being a jackass.
Keep being you.
Keep growing.
I hope you stay well.

 

[cryvinglightning]

i lurked for a little while and when i finally decided to create an account i was really scared of being rejected. i don't even know why. my views may not always allign with the ones on the site, but i still feel like i fit in the community better than i expected. i just feel like i can be 100% myself here, without the constant masking and filtering that i do irl.
you mentioned it being your first day on the forum, so welcome. i hope you find the same sense of community that we're all looking for.

 

[buoy]

i lurked for a little while and when i finally decided to create an account i was really scared of being rejected. i don't even know why. my views may not always allign with the ones on the site, but i still feel like i fit in the community better than i expected. i just feel like i can be 100% myself here, without the constant masking and filtering that i do irl.
you mentioned it being your first day on the forum, so welcome. i hope you find the same sense of community that we're all looking for.

Thank you, friend and I really have been.

I'm so surprised by how easily accessible, how few trolls, and how warm and inviting people are here. I'm glad for this resource. I've already had great dialogue with some people and gotten comfort in ways that people haven't irl.

Glad to meet you.

 

[R_N]

I don't think I was. I also don't know if I failed before.

But this is what got me in and tbh it is exactly how I felt when I typed it. In simplest way.

"First and obvious reason is because I am suicidal. I want to learn more about suicide methods and correct ways to do it.
Secondly, this is a place with similar people in it. I lurked for a while and would love to chat about topics that interest me with someone that doesn't judge me and understands what I am going through."

 

[buoy]

I don't think I was. I also don't know if I failed before.

But this is what got me in and tbh it is exactly how I felt when I typed it. In simplest way.

"First and obvious reason is because I am suicidal. I want to learn more about suicide methods and correct ways to do it.
Secondly, this is a place with similar people in it. I lurked for a while and would love to chat about topics that interest me with someone that doesn't judge me and understands what I am going through."

Im sorry that you "fit in" so well. Shitty way to say I'm sorry that you feel this way but I'm here for you. I'm glad this resource exists. I hope it helps you to get better. Whatever that means to you.

 

[gbi2]

I've been told by people, including a therapist, that I need to get to the point when I explain things to people (poss. autism) so when I first tried to sign up I did just that, got to the point, and I was rejected, asking for "more information". "FFS", I thought "I just can't win", (my actual reason for losing the will to live) and stomped round in anger for a few days or weeks then tried again, but not wanting anyone to know of my first failure, the second time I tried, I disguised myself with a cunning alteration to my username.

 

[tiger b]

I just said how pissed off I was with the BBC for one-sided journalism. I wasn't concerned about being 'accepted' that way. I'm not sure I always fit, though I'm definitely pro-choice.

I guess there will be threads more suited to me than others, and I'll learn more where I should stick my furry paws in or not. Such is the nature of quite a diverse forum. I like being helpful, but there's a time and a place and I hope I have enough wisdom to grasp that.

 

[MourningDove]

I'm thankful to be on here.

When I submitted my account information, I wanted to be transparent; and I do have hope things will be better for me, or that I can help someone else out here. I didn't want to come off as the eype of person that makes this website/resource a necessity.

Was anyone else anxious while your account was pending?

definitely was scared joining this website for the first time, and my account got rejected the first time, but it only gave me more motivation to try again. Very glad I made an account, one of the best decisions I've made recently

 

[buoy]

It's wild to see so many people rejected that seem to really belong. Whether massively committed to CTB or not, you all very much seem the be a positive addition to this thread/site.

 

[アホペンギン]

No, I did feel anxious when my account was being accepted but that wasn't from the worries that you experienced because you thought you might've not been accepted. Those emotions were just because I was becoming inpatient since it took quite a while for my account to be accepted.

 

[buoy]

No, I did feel anxious when my account was being accepted but that wasn't from the worries that you experienced because you thought you might've not been accepted. Those emotions were just because I was becoming inpatient since it took quite a while for my account to be accepted.

I can't PM yet because how new the account is. I followed one of your recent threads (if you're who I think you are). I hope you feel well at the moment.
How is the ward treating you?

If you don't feel like responding to this, just know I'm rooting for you. For whatever brings you peace.

Be well friend.

 

[アホペンギン]

I can't PM yet because how new the account is. I followed one of your recent threads (if you're who I think you are). I hope you feel well at the moment.
How is the ward treating you?

If you don't feel like responding to this, just know I'm rooting for you. For whatever brings you peace.

Be well friend.

I'm currently not in the ward.. I haven't been there in months but I have been in the hospital recently. They treated me fine but I felt very paranoid during my stay. I guess it's just my terrible mental health causing that.

I wish you the best.

 

[buoy]

I'm currently not in the ward.. I haven't been there in months but I have been in the hospital recently. They treated me fine but I felt very paranoid during my stay. I guess it's just my terrible mental health causing that.

I wish you the best.

Wish you the best too. Happy to see you in the discord

 

[Fimbulvetr]

Yeah omg! I was so nervous
I figured I could get rly good advice for both CTB or recovery (well, I aimed to have advice for both anyway) and I wanted a way to look closer at the site (which apparently the search bar is only available for members and it was hard for me to navigate without it) and find resources easier... so I'm rly thankful I was accepted!!!!

 

[LonelyStarrySky]

I was worried because I got rejected the first, I thought that my application was a bit too pretentious or something, but it was some sort of glitch or something with my browser idk that made it look like I was using a proxy or something. I attempted it again and got accepted, I am glad to be here because I wanted ways to CTB but also like the community here is really welcoming.

 

[buoy]

Yeah omg! I was so nervous
I figured I could get rly good advice for both CTB or recovery (well, I aimed to have advice for both anyway) and I wanted a way to look closer at the site (which apparently the search bar is only available for members and it was hard for me to navigate without it) and find resources easier... so I'm rly thankful I was accepted!!!!

Glad you're here friend and I hope this site leads to your recovery.

Rooting for you

 

[gvmi]

I was very nervous before getting accepted (I was a lurker here for a couple of days), and the first time I applied I got rejected because I got so nervous my text just sounded really stiff and robotic.

I hope I can help some people with either ways to CTB painlessly, or recovering...

 

[cetacea]

I was very nervous. it didnt help I kept reading Reddit posts about being rejected from the site. I kept over-analyzing my submission - was it too long? Too short? Goofy? Stupid? But I was accepted very quickly. I saw this as the one place I could truly speak my mind and if I got rejected it would've hurt very badly. Ive lurked for several months and Im relieved to be a part of this group now

 

[HighFlight]

For what it's worth, I got rejected multiple times when I applied. It felt terrible and hurt each time - I'm not even worthy of membership here.

Ironically, I was pretty confident with my first application. By my third, I was beginning to think I'd never get access.

 

[buoy]

For what it's worth, I got rejected multiple times when I applied. It felt terrible and hurt each time - I'm not even worthy of membership here.

Ironically, I was pretty confident with my first application. By my third, I was beginning to think I'd never get access.

I'm sorry you felt rejected especially from a place like this. It's a weird dichotomy.

I hope you to be well and find community IRL and here.

Be well friend.

 

[noname223]

I once was rejected by another suicide forum. I have made some mistakes in the application process and they considered me to be likely a troll. There was a demand I should send them some official documents to verify that I am serious. Well I gladly never did that.

This forum is dead I think. Well my presence was rejected. This is what you got.

I think I was accepted the first time I applied to SaSu (no guarantee) but this as you can a long time ago before all the reports came.

 

[MeltingBrain]

Welcome , I hope we could have met under better circumstances .

 

[Mistiie]

Literally just got here and was thinking, "What if my reasons for posting and being here aren't enough?"

Thank God they are.

 

[buoy]

Literally just got here and was thinking, "What if my reasons for posting and being here aren't enough?"

Thank God they are.

No reason ever needs to be "enough" to be valid

You are valid, friend.