I know I'm often suicidal but I've come to the conclusion that I think I'm ready to go again. I don't think I can recover and even if I did my life is so fucked that it's almost not worth trying. 42 is a good age to go I think especially if u have no family and few friends or people in your life. I can't do another year of this. I really tried to hang on a long time but it was really unproductive and I'm unable to move forward. I guess it's preparation time. I'm not afraid anymore, because the pain of living outweighs the fear of dying at this point. I'm sure it won't be pleasant but it has to be done. I'm tired of hanging out on here and long extended my stay. It's embarrassing at this point.
I have N but I'm worried about wether I can hold it together enough to do the antiemetic regimen correctly and not back out. I only have enough pills to get it right the one time I do this. Like just enuf of the correct antiemetic so I cannot back out bc I don't know if I can find those pills again easily. It's prescription that I obtained from friend.
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I am 41 about to have 42. I don't really count after 40.
I have enough life false hopes and bullshit.
Stock market will probably crash anytime soon.
No family so I wanna restart over.
I have enough life false hopes and bullshit.
Stock market will probably crash anytime soon.
No family so I wanna restart over.
We might have hyperinflation soon :(" I can't even imagine how horrific shit's gonna look with the coming economic collapse. That's another reason I sort of want out. Economy guaranteed to get worse, people will be dying off in large numbers from starvation and other shit.
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