Wanting to ctb very soon, but things keep popping up to hold you back

[K14~♡]

I thought of maybe attempting within this week, could even be tomorrow, whenever seems good

But I, randomly seem to have obtained a new friend tonight?
It's from spacehey, which I don't even normally open. I had my discord username included there so they added me. They asked me to help with the css and html code for their profile, so I spent a good hour trying to help. I may have info-dumped on them a bit, cuz they said I was enthusiastic (I didn't feel like so?) and they seemed tired at the end ToT
It could just be a one time thing, it's so common to have no more continuing conversations. But they already called me a friend? How can I just dip out the next day? One day, it's saying hi. The next day, it's saying, "bye I'm gonna die"??

I feel like this universe wants me to live ToT

I'm hoping they just won't approach me again TvT Tho yea tbf I should be distancing myself from people rn. I coulda just ignored the friend request, but I'm a dumbass who feel some joy and curiosity when someone new approaches me
I'll just see how things turn out I guess...

Anyway, I think I've seen people here make some posts about things suddenly coming up and delaying their ctb. Though usually rather serious events, mine is just lighthearted...But yea, I'd like to hear if anyone else suddenly has something that makes them feel like they shouldn't go yet, no matter how small or big it is

 

[TheTwelthRootOfTwo]

I thought of maybe attempting within this week, could even be tomorrow, whenever seems good

But I, randomly seem to have obtained a new friend tonight?
It's from spacehey, which I don't even normally open. I had my discord username included there so they added me. They asked me to help with the css and html code for their profile, so I spent a good hour trying to help. I may have info-dumped on them a bit, cuz they said I was enthusiastic (I didn't feel like so?) and they seemed tired at the end ToT
It could just be a one time thing, it's so common to have no more continuing conversations. But they already called me a friend? How can I just dip out the next day? One day, it's saying hi. The next day, it's saying, "bye I'm gonna die"??

I feel like this universe wants me to live ToT

I'm hoping they just won't approach me again TvT Tho yea tbf I should be distancing myself from people rn. I coulda just ignored the friend request, but I'm a dumbass who feel some joy and curiosity when someone new approaches me
I'll just see how things turn out I guess...

Anyway, I think I've seen people here make some posts about things suddenly coming up and delaying their ctb. Though usually rather serious events, mine is just lighthearted...But yea, I'd like to hear if anyone else suddenly has something that makes them feel like they shouldn't go yet, no matter how small or big it is

For sure, for me it's always the little things. I have a hard time focusing on major things as a reason to stay, because it's so overwhelming, it's almost out of reach. For example, "Do my loved ones really care that much? Wouldn't they be better off?". But, suddenly, I see a beautiful rainbow and then think to myself, "What is the matter with you? If you kill yourself you'll never see that again".

 

[Zvetok26]

Yeah..I've been flirting with a guy for a week now. And he seems genuinely sweet and kind. I keep thinking, in another life there could be a chance. Honestly I shouldn't have answered him in the first place. I felt too flattered. No one ever noticed me, especially like that!
At this point I'm just postponing the inevitable. I have to let him go
I am a broken mess. There is no way in hell I am suitable for a relationship of any kind