Starryeyes
Experienced
- Sep 22, 2021
- 237
I'm wanting to ctb due to chronic pain in my back. And trying to live with both pain physically and mentally ( bpd anxiety depression)
I feel like the people around me don't take it seriously due to the fact you can't actually 'see' either. I'm sure I'd get more sympathy if my legs were snapped in half. But the pain has got too much and my GP won't refer me to a skeletal specialist or a pain clinic. I told her last week that I'm suicidal because of the pain and the response I got was ' oh well I'm not allowed to refer you for a MRI due to covid' which is absolute nonsense. I'm pretty sure my spinal cord is being compressed as I get numbness and then pins and needles in my arms and my vision gets blurry / black / stars.
When I write my goodbye notes I'll including one that I feel that this contributed to my decision massively and I was failed by the health care system.
I want to die so bad. Crying myself to sleep at night because I'll be leaving some really important people behind in the wake of it. But I can't be expected to live like this. If I was a dog I would be put to sleep.
I feel like the people around me don't take it seriously due to the fact you can't actually 'see' either. I'm sure I'd get more sympathy if my legs were snapped in half. But the pain has got too much and my GP won't refer me to a skeletal specialist or a pain clinic. I told her last week that I'm suicidal because of the pain and the response I got was ' oh well I'm not allowed to refer you for a MRI due to covid' which is absolute nonsense. I'm pretty sure my spinal cord is being compressed as I get numbness and then pins and needles in my arms and my vision gets blurry / black / stars.
When I write my goodbye notes I'll including one that I feel that this contributed to my decision massively and I was failed by the health care system.
I want to die so bad. Crying myself to sleep at night because I'll be leaving some really important people behind in the wake of it. But I can't be expected to live like this. If I was a dog I would be put to sleep.