Wanting ctb to be a complete shock

[Soulstax]

I know when I ctb it will completely and utterly shock so many people, yet for some reason that's how I'd like it to be. I messed up bad and if I don't ctb it's complete destruction of reputation, loss of job, loss of all my money, divorce, homelessness, and possible prison time so this is basically how it had to be. I have given no indication whatsoever to anyone that I'm planning to do this (ordered SN, then it's over when it gets here), and since I'll be gone it won't matter to me. I'm wondering if anyone feels this way? Seems so selfish, yet for some reason it's how I feel. I want everyone to be as surprised as possible.

 

[asifkhanny12345]

Where you get sn from I need it

 

[Quarky00]

I don't think it's selfish.. I feel like that a lot. Mostly because everyone could have done better. I feel some spite accompanies my ctb. Don't care if I shock them or not (couldn't give a damn). What are your reasons?

 

[Soulstax]

Where you get sn from I need it

Surprisingly easy and cheap to get in the states.

I don't think it's selfish.. I feel like that a lot. Mostly because everyone could have done better. I feel some spite accompanies my ctb. Don't care if I shock them or not (couldn't give a damn). What are your reasons?

I think it's the opposite reason for me. Ctb is inevitable for me soon and I don't want saved or talked out of it,and I don't believe in afterlife or anything, and none of my loves and interests will matter to me anymore, plus I won't have to deal with the aftermath of my death. Those facts are so pleasant for me

 

[asifkhanny12345]

Am uk

 

[Zoltiel]

Nah I hope no one even notices. But I know it will be a shock to everyone at my work. Everyone seems so happy there. Young people with good jobs don't normally die in the states.

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

Your feelings are valid. And besides, if people knew, they probably wouldn't understand and would either try to talk you out of it or report you so that you end up in a psych ward and either coerced or forced to take meds.

You can order SN online. Be sure it's sodium nitrite with an I, not nitrAte with an A.

 

[Flippy]

I know when I ctb it will completely and utterly shock so many people, yet for some reason that's how I'd like it to be. I messed up bad and if I don't ctb it's complete destruction of reputation, loss of job, loss of all my money, divorce, homelessness, and possible prison time so this is basically how it had to be. I have given no indication whatsoever to anyone that I'm planning to do this (ordered SN, then it's over when it gets here), and since I'll be gone it won't matter to me. I'm wondering if anyone feels this way? Seems so selfish, yet for some reason it's how I feel. I want everyone to be as surprised as possible.

Wow that sounds serious? Are you sure it's that bad? :-0

 

[Soulstax]

Wow that sounds serious? Are you sure it's that bad? :-0

100% sure, maybe even worse.

 

[Quarky00]

I think it's the opposite reason for me. Ctb is inevitable for me soon and I don't want saved or talked out of it,and I don't believe in afterlife or anything, and none of my loves and interests will matter to me anymore, plus I won't have to deal with the aftermath of my death. Those facts are so pleasant for me

So, why shock everyone ? :)

 

[Flippy]

100% sure, maybe even worse.

I understand that you might be reluctant to share for obvious reasons so I won't necessarily expect an answer, but have you commited a crime of some sort?

 

[Quarky00]

Is this it

I'd suggest not posting direct link to buy fatal products... You can state product title instead? (We can google)
If this place turns into bunch of links to fatal substances, that won't be good, or serve its purpose.
I'm not telling you what to do, just how I think/feel

 

[asifkhanny12345]

Am gunna remove it just need to know that am buying right one