Want to CTB with gun but cant get one idk what to do anymore?

[Suez]

Ive only ever considered a gun to CTB because i want to make sure i die. I dont want to be left on earth as a fucken vegetable. This has happened to a friend of mine, so I just cant go this way. I know there are a few other methods which are fairly reliable, but you know what its like when you get something stuck in your mind & its like that or nothing. I cant help thinking there has to be someway that i can finally acheive what i want. I live in NZ, so access to guns is difficult but its not unacheiveable in my mind. I know there are people out there with guns, many peolpe in NZ are licenced gun holders. I cant get a licence because i have a criminal record, otherwise this would have been so easy. Some years ago I used to know a few people that were associated with a couple of diff gangs here in NZ but having lost contact with them has meant this option is out for me too. Im hoping that someone in this forum is from NZ and is able to help me out? I feel like my life has been on hold for some time now. I feel like im in some kind of weird limbo....I just want out. I want it so bad. I now there may come a time where I will have to give up on my quest of what for me has been a plan in the making for many years now, but i dont want to give that method of CTB up just yet. I just hope & shit even pray (and thats not me) that things will turn around for me and a Knight in shining armour will come to my rescue and help me out? Im hoping my Knight is out there?

 

[Mr2005]

I'm not the knight just another person like you

 

[FireFox]

Ive only ever considered a gun to CTB because i want to make sure i die. I dont want to be left on earth as a fucken vegetable. This has happened to a friend of mine, so I just cant go this way. I know there are a few other methods which are fairly reliable, but you know what its like when you get something stuck in your mind & its like that or nothing. I cant help thinking there has to be someway that i can finally acheive what i want. I live in NZ, so access to guns is difficult but its not unacheiveable in my mind. I know there are people out there with guns, many peolpe in NZ are licenced gun holders. I cant get a licence because i have a criminal record, otherwise this would have been so easy. Some years ago I used to know a few people that were associated with a couple of diff gangs here in NZ but having lost contact with them has meant this option is out for me too. Im hoping that someone in this forum is from NZ and is able to help me out? I feel like my life has been on hold for some time now. I feel like im in some kind of weird limbo....I just want out. I want it so bad. I now there may come a time where I will have to give up on my quest of what for me has been a plan in the making for many years now, but i dont want to give that method of CTB up just yet. I just hope & shit even pray (and thats not me) that things will turn around for me and a Knight in shining armour will come to my rescue and help me out? Im hoping my Knight is out there?

Forget the gun. Dont even think about it. You dont deserve a hole in your head. You are better than that

I am not a knight ( i am a woman but i can be a friend .
Tell us what is bothering you we wont judge

Why do want to ctb?

 

[Suez]

Its kind of you to say that but there is no turning back for me. If it were as simple as something bothering me I wouldnt be here. It a whole lifetime and im tired now and just want an end to everything. I appreciate you trying but believe me your wasting your time with me. There might be other people here that would be greatfull of help, sorry its just not me. Thnks anyway.

 

[NothingElseMatters]

Me too, wish I could get a gun, I've tried everything, even paying my friend a great amount of money so he can get it done but turn out just badly. I'm considering others methods since this one is out of table.

 

[Suez]

Me too, wish I could get a gun, I've tried everything, even paying my friend a great amount of money so he can get it done but turn out just badly. I'm considering others methods since this one is out of table.

Wow, paying a friend to help you, Im not surprised that turned out so bad. Im not thru trying yet tho, i guess ive always pictured that i would CTB with a gun and id like to try and stay with that method for as long as i can handle being alive. There has to be some way of getting one.

 

[doomeddoomer]

tried to pm you but cant find the option (still not 100% familiar how to use the site lmao) but i think we may be able to talk about something.

 

[one4all]

@doomeddoomer You've joined in October of last year and this is your first post. Been lurking all that time? LOL

 

[doomeddoomer]

@doomeddoomer You've joined in October of last year and this is your first post. Been lurking all that time? LOL

yeah i stopped using the site shortly after i joined to deal with a few things irl. but going to try and be more active with my remaining time:)

 

[Tamazi 123]

tried to pm you but cant find the option (still not 100% familiar how to use the site lmao) but i think we may be able to talk about something.

Could you PM me also

 

[Suez]

Could you PM me also

Sure will do

 

[doomeddoomer]

Could you PM me also

so i can just reply to a few more threads then i can pm or?

 

[Suez]

so i can just reply to a few more threads then i can pm or?

I actually sent you a PM, you didnt see anything? If not yes, i think thats how it works? Perhaps drop a thread and ask?

Could you PM me also

Did you get my PM?

 

[one4all]

so i can just reply to a few more threads then i can pm or?

You need 5 posts in order to PM. You already been here over the 24 hour rule.. so that doesn't apply to you.

 

[doomeddoomer]

You need 5 posts in order to PM. You already been here over the 24 hour rule.. so that doesn't apply to you.

my bad for not being too familiar with the site sorry. does that refer to threads posted or just replies?

 

[one4all]

my bad for not being too familiar with the site sorry. does that refer to threads posted or just replies?

Posting is posting to the best of my knowledge. You can check the FAQ section to see more details on it, if you want.

Might not be a bad idea to check out the FAQ and Resource pages then. To get a little familiar with it

I'm not trying to be rude either. Just trying to help

 

[doomeddoomer]

Posting is posting to the best of my knowledge. You can check the FAQ section to see more details on it, if you want.

okay thank you.

 

[Suez]

ok

okay thank you.

Hey there, I just posted a thread about how to PM, so it may be worth following that. I will too. It seems i can PM as mine went through to you fine, just got to get you to that point now. Fingers crossed.

 

[s1mplem3]

Gun is not a 100% method, there is a chance to be vegetable. Well, not is 100% but SN doesn't make permanent damage to our health as gun.

 

[Suez]

Gun is not a 100% method, there is a chance to be vegetable. Well, not is 100% but SN doesn't make permanent damage to our health as gun.

Perhaps not 100% but Im happy with pretty close to that when so many other methods are far further down the reliability index. As far as permanent damage to my health, i think either way be it SN or gun, both will be permanently damaging my health which is the whole idea.

 

[s1mplem3]

Perhaps not 100% but Im happy with pretty close to that when so many other methods are far further down the reliability index. As far as permanent damage to my health, i think either way be it SN or gun, both will be permanently damaging my health which is the whole idea.

How do SN makes damage to your health? There's also N.

 

[Cashewmilk]

Have you ever seen a gun or touched one in real life? It's actually not that easy, it's quite heavy and takes practice.

 

[Suez]

Have you ever seen a gun or touched one in real life? It's actually not that easy, it's quite heavy and takes practice.

Yes im very familiar with guns. I did own several different kinds of firearms when i was younger. But i have since passed a couple of them on while i was arrested with a couple some years ago.

How do SN makes damage to your health? There's also N.

Sorry not sure i understand you, what do you mean how does it damage your health? Would you not consider, killing yourself a form of damage to your health? And if your referring to Nembutal (N) yes i know what Nembutal is, but Im not interested in that. If i was to choose a different method to a gun I would poss go with SN,