persuasion
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- Dec 10, 2020
- 22
What is a life to live by when you wait for death from your youth until you are old? The most frightening thing is, that it actually seems possible the older I get, to just live 60 years with death as the only real wish and thing to look forward to. I thought at some point something would change, but no. Over ten years of suicidal ideation and there's no stop in sight. Death is the only thing that's logical, yet here I am living by day doing stuff, thinking stuff, feeling stuff. Theye days amount to years, to decades, until an average death. I already gave up making sense of this. Just how it goes I guess.