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[vivi¬¬]

vsed

i used to jump by train but fail. i recover to many painful（mental and body）i think am a bad person i am so badmy father and mother taking care of me now. but they sometimes work with their colleague.
Today i try handing myself but nothing happened，i just feel some blood in my face and voice about Pulse sound. and i keep the position about10min，nothing happened i fail.
i try to VSED.Even if my father and mother at home morning and night they want me to eat. but i just eat a little bit.
today its 30/10/2024, begin
at noon 13：59.
i am so sorry my English is poor

 

[vivi¬¬]

Now the stomach has a strong sense of hunger, stomach acid digestion makes the stomach more painful. Instead of drinking water, I dipped my mouth in a little tea to make the skin of my mouth not so dry
19：12 30/10/2024

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.

 

[vivi¬¬]

I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.

thank you
I want to share my story, although I made my life this way, the main responsibility lies with me. My biological parents were farmers from the bottom of China, and they gave birth to a total of five girls in order to have boys. I was adopted, of course, and given away as a child. In my life, the most traumatic is childhood, my parents will beat me, will also say in front of my classmates that I die with her, and my mother accelerated the accelerator, will also say the topic of jumping together. That's why I have depression and now schizophrenia. Part of the reason is that I'm not good at communicating with people. In China, if you don't study hard, life will be very hard. This is the mainstream value. Moreover, China has a great firewall and cannot communicate with the world, and the rulers implement the policy of fools to control the continuous birth of many people at the bottom. And the school has never taught how to love themselves, parents, family, including sex education is avoided. Therefore, it is very difficult for me to become a normal person living in such a country. I am capricious and have no sense of responsibility. It is also mentally painful for my parents to stay with me for one more day. I had a showdown with them, saying I didn't want to live and end my life vsed, asking them not to take me to the hospital, and if they took me to the hospital and I came back I would jump off a building. I'm sorry about my parents. I love them but I hate them

 

[oro]

Thank you for sharing your story! I'm really sorry about all the bad things you've had to endure and that you are suffering so much. You sound like a really smart, resourceful and strong person and i think because of this you have a good chance at succeeding in life. Your background will make it harder but I believe you can get to a better position and start a new life independently from your parents and maybe things will start looking different for you. Your relationship with them can get better once you get some distance from them, as well. You don't have to listen to the doctors telling you you have a mental illness, you are having a normal human reaction to being traumatized and abused as a child. It's not a bad thing to be capricious, i'm saying that as someone who used to be like that but then broke down and started listening to others instead of myself - that's why i'm here.

I hope you can give yourself more time and i hope that you trust and believe in yourself, you sound so so cool.