jar-baby
Arcanist
- Jun 20, 2023
- 410
For years I've been dissociating pretty much 24/7. Paired with the anhedonia, it's like I'm living a half-life. Removed, on some level, from the world and everything therein. Untouchable, for better or worse. Like a quote from Sylvia Plath goes,
To the person in the bell jar, blank and stopped as a dead baby, the world itself is the bad dream.
It was harder to handle when I began to experience it, but I've grown used to it. I can function. I feel like I'm on autopilot most of the time.
I've described the dissociation in journal entries as feeling like my consciousness is muted, like I'm in a dream, or like there's a screen in my perception separating me from my experience of the world. As life not feeling real so much as an uber-realistic first-person video game.
I've seen discussions about dissociation here before so I'm sure some members can relate to the above.
I recently found these on the dissociation subreddit, and I wanted to share them. They're the most accurate depictions I've seen of what dissociation feels like.
To the person in the bell jar, blank and stopped as a dead baby, the world itself is the bad dream.
It was harder to handle when I began to experience it, but I've grown used to it. I can function. I feel like I'm on autopilot most of the time.
I've described the dissociation in journal entries as feeling like my consciousness is muted, like I'm in a dream, or like there's a screen in my perception separating me from my experience of the world. As life not feeling real so much as an uber-realistic first-person video game.
I've seen discussions about dissociation here before so I'm sure some members can relate to the above.
I recently found these on the dissociation subreddit, and I wanted to share them. They're the most accurate depictions I've seen of what dissociation feels like.
