Very Hard

[Susan Caswell]

How why is this so hard why cant i do this i cant stay like this all i want is to be at peace i could have stood anything but this roaring hammering tinnitus dont even know cause level i could stand ok this is pure torture length of time and severity 4 noises both ears 3 years 3 months plus hyperacusis so bad im in terrible way anxiety of it is crippling just want to die cant live with this its making me so ill im surprised ive not had heart attack with this much anxiety im so ashammed messaging in such despair im so frightened i never thought it would make me this ill in myself just not come not this all was so good i was so very well happy calm soul even my posts are so desperate i always thought there was a fatal pill i guess not there is in the movies is there a cyanide pill ? cant believe this has even happened im only 64 last 3 years with this taken such a toll but i just cant tolerate it wish i could if only was like the start i coped with it for 6 months but the amplifying changed everything and mad it ear splitting i know i will have to end this myself i wish i dare jump and hope for the best but terrified crippled and dont die

 

[Deleted member 22624]

Anxiety can be crippling, but there are lots of medications that can bring it right down, then you might feel like the tinnitus is tolerable, but so many things going on has obviously made you feel completely overwhelmed, I know how it feels when things are too much to bare and I understand how you feel *hugs* I'm scared about jumping too, even off a tall cliff, what if I survive crippled or even just end up in pain at the bottom for a bit. Many of us are in search of a peaceful and painless death, but our countries deny us that for whatever reasons. I don't think cyanide is that peaceful, but iirc it is quick. Probably hard to get though, like most options. I'm sorry, I know how you feel. I just have fairly mild tinnitus but even that gets to me too, especially at night while trying to sleep, had it for quite some time now and it's depressing. On the plus side, they say they're developing medication for it, a recent breakthrough supposedly, fingers crossed it'll reach us soon

 

[pleasethistime]

 

[Susan Caswell]

Anxiety can be crippling, but there are lots of medications that can bring it right down, then you might feel like the tinnitus is tolerable, but so many things going on has obviously made you feel completely overwhelmed, I know how it feels when things are too much to bare and I understand how you feel *hugs* I'm scared about jumping too, even off a tall cliff, what if I survive crippled or even just end up in pain at the bottom for a bit. Many of us are in search of a peaceful and painless death, but our countries deny us that for whatever reasons. I don't think cyanide is that peaceful, but iirc it is quick. Probably hard to get though, like most options. I'm sorry, I know how you feel. I just have fairly mild tinnitus but even that gets to me too, especially at night while trying to sleep, had it for quite some time now and it's depressing. On the plus side, they say they're developing medication for it, a recent breakthrough supposedly, fingers crossed it'll reach us soon

I dont think i can stand it any longer its horrific and ive no clue why life cant be this cruel xx

 

[yetme]

Susan, you need to see a doctor

 

[greebo6]

I wish I could wave a magic wand and make tinnitus go away for you. (And then wave it again for all the nice people on this site , so all their problems could disappear too) It all sounds horrendous .All I can do is send you a hug , so I send one now.

I don't know where a person could get Cyanide but certainly enough of it is lethal.

 

[Susan Caswell]

Susan, you need to see a doctor

They cant stop the noise wish they could or it just go down stop would be fantastic x

I wish I could wave a magic wand and make tinnitus go away for you. (And then wave it again for all the nice people on this site , so all their problems could disappear too) It all sounds horrendous .All I can do is send you a hug , so I send one now.

I don't know where a person could get Cyanide but certainly enough of it is lethal.

Thank you so wish it would just stop or down who has tinnitus so loud your ears move and vibrate i want to be gone this week i cant stand it any longer cant believe it can even exist like this x