KiraComplex
sugar, spice…
- Aug 31, 2019
- 268
hi i just wanted to get this out because none or my friends really give a shit or interrupt with their own venting (which i dont mind here btw) sorry if im just bitching
my two brothers are some of the most hot and cold pieces of shit ive ever met. im sick of the almost constant abuse.
one of my brothers is super fucking rude- tells my mom to shut the fuck up (and she doesnt want to fight back bc tired from work), calls her annoying, says shes lazy, all to her fucking face. its terrible.
he would also be super nice to me, start liking all my interests and sends me Persona memes, treats me nice, gives me bacon when hes cooking. and the next moment he calls me a fat retard, a fucking idiot, lazy, and stupid (once called me a tr*nnie). of course i cut and cry, then the next moment, i feel bad because he sends me memes. then it starts again.
just recently, we had a huge fight. he wouldnt get his clothes out the wash, and i really really needed clean clothes. he said to not touch anything, and started shouting slurs and calling me worthless and fat. i laughed in his face because he hates that and said, "youll come crawling back. what meme will you send this time??" and we havent talked since. its been 4 weeks. i see him exactly how i see my ex, which is such a surprising feeling. i want to say ive been happier now that he doesnt talk to me anymore, but the years of hurt and his words still sting to the point where its the only thing i think about when i cut and plan. it just hurts.
the other one hurts the same maybe more. he treats me nice but switches so fast. we were talking about actresses and he looked them up and i said they were sisters and just fucking randomly told me to shut the fuck up, not even as a joke. or wed be talking about his weird car interest and id ask something and hed call me an idiot for thinking that. i cant take the constant switching.
long post but this is my main documented reason for suicide. my note will mention all of this, aside from the depression and constant anxiety (and hate for society but thats a lil edgy). thanks for reading.
if u have any, please put your experience below!! i may cry over them though.
my two brothers are some of the most hot and cold pieces of shit ive ever met. im sick of the almost constant abuse.
one of my brothers is super fucking rude- tells my mom to shut the fuck up (and she doesnt want to fight back bc tired from work), calls her annoying, says shes lazy, all to her fucking face. its terrible.
he would also be super nice to me, start liking all my interests and sends me Persona memes, treats me nice, gives me bacon when hes cooking. and the next moment he calls me a fat retard, a fucking idiot, lazy, and stupid (once called me a tr*nnie). of course i cut and cry, then the next moment, i feel bad because he sends me memes. then it starts again.
just recently, we had a huge fight. he wouldnt get his clothes out the wash, and i really really needed clean clothes. he said to not touch anything, and started shouting slurs and calling me worthless and fat. i laughed in his face because he hates that and said, "youll come crawling back. what meme will you send this time??" and we havent talked since. its been 4 weeks. i see him exactly how i see my ex, which is such a surprising feeling. i want to say ive been happier now that he doesnt talk to me anymore, but the years of hurt and his words still sting to the point where its the only thing i think about when i cut and plan. it just hurts.
the other one hurts the same maybe more. he treats me nice but switches so fast. we were talking about actresses and he looked them up and i said they were sisters and just fucking randomly told me to shut the fuck up, not even as a joke. or wed be talking about his weird car interest and id ask something and hed call me an idiot for thinking that. i cant take the constant switching.
long post but this is my main documented reason for suicide. my note will mention all of this, aside from the depression and constant anxiety (and hate for society but thats a lil edgy). thanks for reading.
if u have any, please put your experience below!! i may cry over them though.