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TheWhiskyTheLiar
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- Sep 18, 2020
- 29
I feel genuinely alone.
I'm the person that's always there for everyone. Its great that I can positively touch so many lives. But I don't want to.
But for once I wish they'd notice that I don't want to be alive.
I wish I was more than the reliable friend.
The best friend.
The one who will come help regardless of distance.
The one who gives the shirt off their back.
The one that's always available.
The one that always respects people's boundaries.
The one that always listens and people feel actually listens
The one that people feel safe around
The one that always has time for everyone.
I wish I could tell them that I couldn't give less of a fuxk about them and their lives. I wish I could look people in the eyes and admit that I think they're all pathetic.
But im the nice friend. Everyone's pillar of support.
I'm so fucking sick of pretending I actually care about any of them.
I despise them.
I'm sick of being the strong and brave one.
the i don't know what id do without you one.
the I've never had someone in my life care about me like you do one.
the remarkable one
The inspirational one.
God I wish I could just act like myself.
I'm the person that's always there for everyone. Its great that I can positively touch so many lives. But I don't want to.
But for once I wish they'd notice that I don't want to be alive.
I wish I was more than the reliable friend.
The best friend.
The one who will come help regardless of distance.
The one who gives the shirt off their back.
The one that's always available.
The one that always respects people's boundaries.
The one that always listens and people feel actually listens
The one that people feel safe around
The one that always has time for everyone.
I wish I could tell them that I couldn't give less of a fuxk about them and their lives. I wish I could look people in the eyes and admit that I think they're all pathetic.
But im the nice friend. Everyone's pillar of support.
I'm so fucking sick of pretending I actually care about any of them.
I despise them.
I'm sick of being the strong and brave one.
the i don't know what id do without you one.
the I've never had someone in my life care about me like you do one.
the remarkable one
The inspirational one.
God I wish I could just act like myself.