Venting Vent

[author]

Does anyone ever feel like if they mysteriously inherited a lot of money from a relative they've never heard of where they could move to the countryside with no one else around, but still have good electricity and internet, a lot of their problems would be solved? Because I feel like that a lot.

I live in a neighborhood, not really a big city, but I still feel like the noise is driving me fucking insane. I just want it to be quiet here for ONCE. Sometimes I want to kill myself just because of how loud it is. People won't shut the fuck up, blaring bass and revving engines for hours past midnight sometimes. I have such bad fucking headaches and I can't even sleep.

I just feel like I'm not cut out for existing here, but I have nowhere else to go unless I fucking die. I can't get on social security because they think I'm not disabled enough but even temp agencies can't find a job that accommodates my need for a wheelchair / to work sitting down. Fuck this place.

I don't want to kill myself until I can get out of here, because I want to die in any other place than this fucking shithole, but I feel like I'm never getting out.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

It sucks that you feel that living somewhere quieter and more peaceful would be enough for you to want to go on but are unable to make that change. Is that a feasible long-term goal at all?

 

[author]

It sucks that you feel that living somewhere quieter and more peaceful would be enough for you to want to go on but are unable to make that change. Is that a feasible long-term goal at all?

I don't know. I want to think I could but like I said, not even temp agencies can get me hired. I'd have more luck getting struck by lightning than getting out of here with how things have gone so far.