Vent to me

[AlreadyDeadInside]

I just want to tell you all if any of you want's to talk to someone about the shit that has happened in their lives, just pm me or we can talk in discord of you want, i'm a good listener :)

 

[NoOneKnows]

Hi, that is nice. Cant write you PM yet, cuz of new account

 

[AlreadyDeadInside]

yeah i think it takes sometime until i can write/get pms, but i'll be ready then :)

 

[bigj75]

Its tough out here but i appreciate your concern for us.

 

[RedBuns]

I was literally just about to write a thread called "venting" and saw your post LOL cause i reeeeally need to vent

So basically my son is in kindergarden. The nurse is threatening to call CPS on me because apparently my son has been seen with a flea on him (literally one flea) and they say they CANT have fleas in the school. understandable. but calling cps? Are you fucking kidding me? Over FLEAS?? So basically i have until Monday to do e erything i can to get rid of these fucking things. And anyone with pets knows how HARD that is and it takes time. i just have horroble stress and its making me want to ctb even more. MY KIDS mean the world to me and i don't take lightly being threatened with cps.. So i just have so much anxiety and depression going on right now. No clue what to do if i bomb my house, give my cats a bath and try to clean up and throw out as many things i can, and my son still happens to show up with ONE on him and they call cps. i have nothing to hide except for the fact that i smoke marijuana. Ughhh kill me now

 

[AlreadyDeadInside]

It' s a good idea to get everything cleaned, but maybe you should also consider getting in touch with a lawyer because i don't think it makes much sense to be taking away your child over one flea. I'm not that familiar with the laws in your country, but it seems wayyy to harsh to me. If he still has flea on him they could only consider taking away your pets because they're the reason for it, but other than that you should be fine. Just don't worry about it too much, i think in the end everything will work out :)

 

[RedBuns]

It' s a good idea to get everything cleaned, but maybe you should also consider getting in touch with a lawyer because i don't think it makes much sense to be taking away your child over one flea. I'm not that familiar with the laws in your country, but it seems wayyy to harsh to me. If he still has flea on him they could only consider taking away your pets because they're the reason for it, but other than that you should be fine. Just don't worry about it too much, i think in the end everything will work out :)

Thanks, i'm trying not to freak out about it but it's hard.. I'll just do whatever i can to get rid of them fast and hope for the best :/

 

[AhG]

I miss my wife... So fucking much. I never wanted things to end like this, I wanted things to end when we were old and in rocking chairs ffs. I wish I could I talk to her, I wish she would talk to me! I wish she would have just held on till I got out of school or at least met me the day I last saw her. It fucking kills me becaue I miss her so much! I'm crying almost every night because all I do is think about her like I am now. Everybody is telling me to just move on, or that it'll take time to heal. No, fuck that! She was my everything! Literally love at first sight when I met her. It's getting harder and harder to wake up, but I'm scared if I do ctb she would have tried to contact me and I won't be here, or if I fail she won't care enough to see me or... that she won't care at all. It kills me becaue I've tried twice to ctb and both times I've failed without her knowing. I just fucking miss her so much....

 

[Memento Mori]

but I'm scared if I do ctb she would have tried to contact me and I won't be here, or if I fail she won't care enough to see me or... that she won't care at all. It kills me becaue I've tried twice to ctb and both times I've failed without her knowing. I just fucking miss her so much....

Yeah, leave that behind to not go insane, that always being prepared for being there. it just gives you pain. i dont know your reasons to break up but if its true love then there is no problem in believing in destiny, some day you will meet. try to fix yourself until then, in different ways than thinking about her. maybe you're not as dumb as me to continue with failing. we never know if someone cares, you will see, but if she let you down and just walked away I understand that it's hard to believe someone is caring while he won't even contact you, for months, or longer...there is also a bitter reality many ppl have to face. i dont know your girl, but dont try to fall for some 'i will always love you' sentence cuz it doesnt matter what her personality is, it's just empty words if she keeps going on with other guys for a long time, maybe she doesnt know what she wants. time will show, if you love her then dont give up for this crazy ape mechanism from many ppl who fuck their way trough the heartbreak hotel, not feeling anything at all.

 

[Done182]

I am in the exact same situation, like the EXACT situation...

 

[Done182]

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What do you want me to elaborate on? :)

 

[Done182]

Oh gosh they weren't showing up as sent...

 

[Done182]

So now there's three

 

[Done182]

I miss my ex so much and the fixation on what he is dling, the passing of time between us is killing me, maybe I was too far saying the exact same situation

 

[sadgirl2002]

I'm scared if I do ctb she would have tried to contact me and I won't be here, or if I fail she won't care enough to see me or... that she won't care at all.

Wow, I'm in the same fucking situation. This is the only reason I haven't killed myself even though I'm so desperate to. I'm absolutely terrified that my true love will come back after I end my life, I can't even bear the thought! I don't know what happened with you and your wife but I hope she comes back for you.

 

[noctiva]

@AlreadyDeadInside: I love your avatar, FFVII CC is the best FF there is and Zack Fair is just the best (okay second best).

Wow, I'm in the same fucking situation. This is the only reason I haven't killed myself even though I'm so desperate to. I'm absolutely terrified that my true love will come back after I end my life, I can't even bear the thought! I don't know what happened with you and your wife but I hope she comes back for you.

I am in the exact same boat. I'm sorry @AhG and @218x, this situation is absolute torture, I know. I wish I had ctb'd already 2 months ago, but the idea that I just miss him coming back is keeping me trapped here in this limbo. If either of you want to reach out via PM, please do. Sending you both lots of love and strength. Take care of yourselves and treat yourselves kindly, you deserve love and compassion.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

Thank you for offering to be a Listener. I am here as well if you ever need to vent and talk

All the best until then

 

[MissNietzsche]

I miss my ex so much and the fixation on what he is dling, the passing of time between us is killing me, maybe I was too far saying the exact same situation

Had anything happened since this post? I miss my ex immensely too.