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rawglitch
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- Feb 24, 2021
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Vent and CTB ?
I don't know how to properly vent but hi guys :) kinda new here ! I've always wanted to ctb for a long time even during my freshman year , I'm about to graduate but I really hate this place called earth. I really hate it and I hate who I grow up as. Literally I'm the stupidest loser ever here on earth I can't do the right thing. I can't seem to learn. Grew up with a psychotic brother who gave me PTSD. I really hate it. I failed sooo many times I can't even keep count , I failed as a son, as a student and as a boyfriend really . There's times where I really just wanna ctb but I'm such a pussy about it, don't know how to do it .. I don't wanna fail , I just want a fast painless death. I never heard my dad said he's proud of me or from no one. Literally I'm no one in my family. Thinking about ending it in 3 months before graduation. I'm already failing. I'm becoming worthless everyday . I know I'll probably traumatize my mother or my gf but it'll probably just be for a few days and they'll get over with. I really just want to end it in the next 3 months but I don't know how ... any easy methods I can use ? Don't know if advice on this is allowed. Sorry for the vent I love y'all
I don't know how to properly vent but hi guys :) kinda new here ! I've always wanted to ctb for a long time even during my freshman year , I'm about to graduate but I really hate this place called earth. I really hate it and I hate who I grow up as. Literally I'm the stupidest loser ever here on earth I can't do the right thing. I can't seem to learn. Grew up with a psychotic brother who gave me PTSD. I really hate it. I failed sooo many times I can't even keep count , I failed as a son, as a student and as a boyfriend really . There's times where I really just wanna ctb but I'm such a pussy about it, don't know how to do it .. I don't wanna fail , I just want a fast painless death. I never heard my dad said he's proud of me or from no one. Literally I'm no one in my family. Thinking about ending it in 3 months before graduation. I'm already failing. I'm becoming worthless everyday . I know I'll probably traumatize my mother or my gf but it'll probably just be for a few days and they'll get over with. I really just want to end it in the next 3 months but I don't know how ... any easy methods I can use ? Don't know if advice on this is allowed. Sorry for the vent I love y'all