Valentine's day

[inconclusivesorbet]

Hello, I am relatively new here
I am 29 nb unemployed persistent depressive bipolar/bpd unemployed and need out of this realm. I would ideally like to Fsh before Valentines day. However I live with my mom, I am considering having flowers delivered on valentines day for her as I would be leaving her alone. Would this hurt her so much? Or remind her that I loved her as much as I could? She always says she'd follow me if I CTB'D and I dont want to nudge her into doing that by any means.

 

[kufajoy]

I think she will feel both.

 

[Dejected 55]

Hard to say. I could really see it going either way. I don't know if there is a way to pre-console someone if they genuinely care and will miss you when you are gone.

 

[SufferingDev]

I don't really know how is it like...my family is the reason I want to CTB...I have a bf but am still unsure about all these - I have friends but we kinda got out of touch - I don't see anyone I would truly stay for - that's why I am really confused but in like curious way - how is it like - having someone you 100% know you could rely on and genuely not wanting to hurt them by you being gone...at one point it makes CTB harder....but...