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birdyy
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- Nov 21, 2020
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hi
i'm uhm really really new to this site, so forgive me if i'm still learning the lingo. i lurked for an hour or so and was so surprised and delighted at the wealth of resources. maybe i won't have to go through with my car exhaust thing, i didn't know there were so many more options
i've been in a relationship(long distance) for a few months now and i'm torn about whether to break up with her before i cbt. i'm a girl mid 20's bi and no ones ever wanted to be with me like that, so it's my first relationship so i don't want to let it go even though i don't want to hurt her. i love her and enjoy spending time with her and don't want to lose her in the time i have remaining but i'm not sure if that's just me being extremely selfish.
i'm also worried that if i end it, more people will be monitoring my emotional state and checking in and looking for red flags and that's literally the last thing i want right now but don't want to drag her into my exit plan
i'm uhm really really new to this site, so forgive me if i'm still learning the lingo. i lurked for an hour or so and was so surprised and delighted at the wealth of resources. maybe i won't have to go through with my car exhaust thing, i didn't know there were so many more options
i've been in a relationship(long distance) for a few months now and i'm torn about whether to break up with her before i cbt. i'm a girl mid 20's bi and no ones ever wanted to be with me like that, so it's my first relationship so i don't want to let it go even though i don't want to hurt her. i love her and enjoy spending time with her and don't want to lose her in the time i have remaining but i'm not sure if that's just me being extremely selfish.
i'm also worried that if i end it, more people will be monitoring my emotional state and checking in and looking for red flags and that's literally the last thing i want right now but don't want to drag her into my exit plan