Unsure what’s going on

[Taki]

Not totally clear on what's happening. At work I'm fine and can do my work although I think I talk to myself a lot. In the evening I drink. I've dismantled my bed and sleep on the bathroom or living room floor. Yet in the morning I get up on time, go to work, etc. Input is appreciated.

 

[Insertname1]

Do you think maybe at work, whatever tasks you have to do briefly distract you for the time you are there? What do you do for work if you don't mind me asking

 

[Ghost2211]

Why dismantle your bed and sleep on the floor?

 

[Meditation guide]

Not totally clear on what's happening. At work I'm fine and can do my work although I think I talk to myself a lot. In the evening I drink. I've dismantled my bed and sleep on the bathroom or living room floor. Yet in the morning I get up on time, go to work, etc. Input is appreciated.

How much do you drink? Do you do it every night? I assume you don't live with anyone? Sometimes drinking and loneliness can lead to some odd behavior.

 

[Deathbydemo]

Do you think it's possible you are experiencing some sort of episode?

 

[Taki]

Why dismantle your bed and sleep on the floor?

When I'm very depressed sleeping in my bed bothers me. I feel exposed and it feels better to sleep on the floor.

Do you think it's possible you are experiencing some sort of episode?

I'm not psychotic if that's what you mean.

 

[Its time its time]

You're just stuck in a cycle and work is the place that society expects you to be normal. You are a logical person so you know that you must be normal at work for those few hours, also work is a distraction because you have responsibilities and tasks to carry out. Your mind is constrained for those few hours.

Yet when you leave work, that's the time that you're alone. You have all the time to reflect and think.. that's is when your mind is allowed to run free without the constraints of work. Alcohol indeed helps to loosen the mind more.

However, you wake up the next day realizing that the cycle starts again. You go through the cycle hoping to find a solution to break away from this cycle. Hoping that a miracle happens or something happens to wake you up from this nightmare. Until something does.. life will just be that cycle that you are experiencing.