i am unlovable not because of them and how they make me feel but because of how i am, i didnt experience my parents love as a child and feels awkward now that im grown up and they try to be loving towards me, i flinch at my dads touch, i cringe at my moms affection and i don't know if im truly gonna feel loved if my body keeps rejecting it.
everytime i find someone i really connect to on dating apps my head always finds away to somehow push them away and i get really insecure because of it
i will have times where i feel confident in my self and my thoughts but i feel like i cannot reciprocate the love that they will give me because i never had any in the beginning
at some point in our life we presented ourselves with different personalities in front of our loved ones, people we dont like, etc. but ive put up this face up for years that i dont know who the real me is , when i am by myself i am not the person i present to the world i am a pathetic, lonely, insecure, weird person and i feel that this is not good at all..
because there is a limit to when i can keep this other side of me and when it crashes and the real me shows it concerns people
i dont know what to do anymore i am hopeless i try to be myself but i dont even know who i am genuinely
everytime i find someone i really connect to on dating apps my head always finds away to somehow push them away and i get really insecure because of it
i will have times where i feel confident in my self and my thoughts but i feel like i cannot reciprocate the love that they will give me because i never had any in the beginning
at some point in our life we presented ourselves with different personalities in front of our loved ones, people we dont like, etc. but ive put up this face up for years that i dont know who the real me is , when i am by myself i am not the person i present to the world i am a pathetic, lonely, insecure, weird person and i feel that this is not good at all..
because there is a limit to when i can keep this other side of me and when it crashes and the real me shows it concerns people
i dont know what to do anymore i am hopeless i try to be myself but i dont even know who i am genuinely
