Discussion Uhh... Hey.

[Ashe]

I've never really been great at introducing myself or intergrating myself into new communities but I guess y'all can call me A or Ashe and I'm 28 at the time of me writing this. I've been diagnosed as a chronic depressive since I was 16 and have had to deal to struggle with my rise of increasing suicidalness. I don't really know what I'm gonna achieve being here but hopefully I can achieve some clarity of what I ultimately want whether if it's CTB or not.

 

[HighFlight]

Hi Ashe, welcome to the community. Many of us are in similar situations, and you'll find a wide range people from those ready to ctb, to those looking to recover. This is generally a safe space to discuss those thoughts without judgment, although like any online forum, you still need to be careful.

Like you, I joined to help me figure out which path I wanted to choose. I was a high-functioning person with treatment-resistent chronic depression and anxiety since high school (a long time ago). I lost the high-functioning part a few years ago and have had a significant increase in ctb ideation. This community has been the first social network I feel like I can share my real feelings. And listening to everyone else's stories has helped me to realize I'm not alone.

I wish you all the best on your journey and hope that you can find some peace, regardless of the path you choose.

 

[unoriginalnick]

well I personally think that this community is biased towards CTB so If you want to look at more options then that its best to avoid.
though I'm not really integrated in the community

 

[Ashe]

well I personally think that this community is biased towards CTB so If you want to look at more options then that its best to avoid.

That's honestly fine, I've already attempted to CTB a few times within the last few years.

 

[EternalShore]

Hey there, Ashe! :D Welcome! ^_^ I hope you find yourself at home and find peace with whatever you choose to do! :)

 

[AshClouds]

Hey Ashe, welcome to the community, sorry you're here.

I don't really know what I'm gonna achieve being here but hopefully I can achieve some clarity of what I ultimately want whether if it's CTB or not.

you can always look at the recovery section too, and read about people who found ways to cope with everything.

I hope you find yourself welcomed here.

 

[rabbitmalice56]

Hi there, im also new but this community makes me feel comfortable for me seeing that we're all having some sort of the same experience trying to find a solution whether to end it or getting out of it. Hope you find what you're looking for.

 

[cardboard_house]

Hey Ashe, I'm pretty new myself but everybody here has been really kind and this forum has really helped me. I hope you find the right choice for yourself.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best in whatever happens going forward, it sounds like you've suffered for a long time, it must be tiring what you've been through.

 

[SVEN]

Hi Ashe, you'll find this is a place where you can let whatever you want out to folk you don't know, will never meet and are just struggling to cope with our own lifes and emotions.
There's no pressure to ctb or not and as mentioned previously there is a Recovery section where you can see the coping methods others are trying out.
Be kind to yourself and go well.

 

[Worndown]

Ashe, have you sought any treatment? None of it is a magical cure, but some of it can reduce symptoms enough life can continue.
Please go though the threads. They are searchable. This is a great place to find others that share your situation. You can also ask questions here that would be difficult to express in person.

 

[Meditation guide]

I've never really been great at introducing myself or intergrating myself into new communities but I guess y'all can call me A or Ashe and I'm 28 at the time of me writing this. I've been diagnosed as a chronic depressive since I was 16 and have had to deal to struggle with my rise of increasing suicidalness. I don't really know what I'm gonna achieve being here but hopefully I can achieve some clarity of what I ultimately want whether if it's CTB or not.

Hi A, I think you're great at introducing yourself! I'm the all time worst at this, I never even say hello to anyone, probably I'm autistic. I think you will find some like minded people here. Just don't be too trusting.

 

[flowers in the mist]

Hiiii Ashe!

Welcome, I hope you'll enjoy your stay!

 

[Ashe]

Ashe, have you sought any treatment? None of it is a magical cure, but some of it can reduce symptoms enough life can continue.
Please go though the threads. They are searchable. This is a great place to find others that share your situation. You can also ask questions here that would be difficult to express in person.

I use to go see therapists and counselors but it's been a good few years now since ive seen anyone because I just didn't feel like anything was helping. Im also aware there's no magic cure for whats wrong with me and I'm not expecting to find something that just works for me.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Hi Ashe! Welcome to the forum!

 

[Meditation guide]

I use to go see therapists and counselors but it's been a good few years now since ive seen anyone because I just didn't feel like anything was helping. Im also aware there's no magic cure for whats wrong with me and I'm not expecting to find something that just works for me.

I went through the therapist ordeal and it was not only not helpful but harmful. At some point I decided to throw in the towel. So here we all are, at least we have each other.

 

[strawb12]

heyo Ashe(love the name btw). welcome to SS. Its just my opinion so think whatever you want but I think that if you're not 100% sure that you want to ctb & that its the right thing for you then you just shouldn't. Either way the community is here to support you whatever you decide or believe.

 

[MBG]

Hey Ashe, welcome!

Magic Mushrooms and other hallucinogens have been effective in treating treatment resistant depression. Legal status of them vary country to country and in the USA state to state and even city to city. Just research online.

Try everything before throwing everything away.

Wish you the best!