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777puppy777
Scizoaffective, CPTSD
- Aug 21, 2024
- 22
I hate it. I can't stand it. Everywhere I look something weird and sexual is going on in the internet. I can't stand people who makes those jokes. I hate when people say I'm pretty and try to get with me but I know I'm just average. I want to recover from this but it's so hard, obviously bad stuff has happened to me-and I can't stand it whether if it's from a man or woman or whoever. The voices make it a million times worse though, they're always moaning or assaulting me or doing stuff with eachother or flirting with me in a sexual way it's driving me insane. Even annything slightly flirty drives me fucking insane. Anything romantic too. Unfortunately the job I have has to do with sexual themes, it's legal though thankfully. But the thing is-is that I need this job because it pays enough for my hobbies and rent and all that. I can't get any other job, but it's absolutely tearing me apart. But then again it provides enough income for me to live my life fully. I just hope this new medicine will help me completely get rid of those voices. Those are the main issue. I could handle this if the voices weren't constantly saying perverted shit to me. I know I'll be okay. I have faith, I'm just in a rough spot and it sucks when you live and grow up in a culture where sex is just in your face all. the. damn. time.
Please be nice if you're reading this and want to reply, this life is all I've known. I just wish I could make amends with it and embrace this all as normal human functioning but my body refuses to let that be allowed and I just get disgusted.
Please be nice if you're reading this and want to reply, this life is all I've known. I just wish I could make amends with it and embrace this all as normal human functioning but my body refuses to let that be allowed and I just get disgusted.