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Rainn
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- Dec 3, 2020
- 18
I haven't been on this site in a minute and noticed a lot of forums talk about different things asking for advice so I would be okay for me to post this.
So me and this guy met around the end of June and became good friends. He was really nice and I enjoyed our conversations. I moved to Colorado not too long ago so I don't really know a lot of people here. Lately I've been feeling really down going through a lot of problems with work, school, family, etc. We started getting really close and I was developing feelings for him. I hid these feelings for a few months because I was scared it would ruin our relationship. I don't think I'm a very attractive person so whenever I like a guy or a girl I know it's never going to work out for me. Dating is something I avoid due to my personal issues and other things. At first I thought he felt the same about me with the constant flirting, calling me cute nicknames, holding me, taking me out and so on.
A week before Christmas I decided to confess my feelings after my friend told me not to lol. She felt like he was just leading me on and things would end bad for us. Why didn't I listen to her? I told him how I felt, he thought I was cute and not much really happened, we kept talking. It was really weird. I got him a late Christmas gift and he really liked it, we hugged and in that moment I thought he was going to kiss me because of how close we were but I kind of moved away and kept talking. He pulled me really close wrapping his arm around me while I'm freaking out trying to not say anything stupid.
I really miss those times we spent together. Since New Year, he's been acting strange distancing himself. We don't really talk unless it's something important and we don't hang out anymore. I tried talking to him but he doesn't seem interested in me anymore. I ask myself if I did something wrong and if he hates me. Every time he walks by, I avoid his gaze and I can feel him staring at me. His best friend knows that I have feelings for him and said that he's just trying to play it safe. What? I don't know what he means by that. It hurts because I really like this guy and he was always there for me and I was for him. Before I met him I was really depressed and felt like such a failure (sometimes I still do) and was ready to end it all. But with him, he made me feel important and I thought things were moving in a good direction but....I don't know.
I feel like I'm back at stage one again feeling worthless again and alone. I hate feeling this way.
So me and this guy met around the end of June and became good friends. He was really nice and I enjoyed our conversations. I moved to Colorado not too long ago so I don't really know a lot of people here. Lately I've been feeling really down going through a lot of problems with work, school, family, etc. We started getting really close and I was developing feelings for him. I hid these feelings for a few months because I was scared it would ruin our relationship. I don't think I'm a very attractive person so whenever I like a guy or a girl I know it's never going to work out for me. Dating is something I avoid due to my personal issues and other things. At first I thought he felt the same about me with the constant flirting, calling me cute nicknames, holding me, taking me out and so on.
A week before Christmas I decided to confess my feelings after my friend told me not to lol. She felt like he was just leading me on and things would end bad for us. Why didn't I listen to her? I told him how I felt, he thought I was cute and not much really happened, we kept talking. It was really weird. I got him a late Christmas gift and he really liked it, we hugged and in that moment I thought he was going to kiss me because of how close we were but I kind of moved away and kept talking. He pulled me really close wrapping his arm around me while I'm freaking out trying to not say anything stupid.
I really miss those times we spent together. Since New Year, he's been acting strange distancing himself. We don't really talk unless it's something important and we don't hang out anymore. I tried talking to him but he doesn't seem interested in me anymore. I ask myself if I did something wrong and if he hates me. Every time he walks by, I avoid his gaze and I can feel him staring at me. His best friend knows that I have feelings for him and said that he's just trying to play it safe. What? I don't know what he means by that. It hurts because I really like this guy and he was always there for me and I was for him. Before I met him I was really depressed and felt like such a failure (sometimes I still do) and was ready to end it all. But with him, he made me feel important and I thought things were moving in a good direction but....I don't know.
I feel like I'm back at stage one again feeling worthless again and alone. I hate feeling this way.