Trying to completely cut off my desire for close relationships before I CTB

[BabyYoda]

Day 1 of 2020.........

........ugh..........

If I find a loving partner/best friend before I graduate I will probably not CTB but if they leave me I will

 

[goldenrods]

i've already started. haven't talked to my best friends in weeks. :( it'll be easier for them

 

[Jean4]

Day 1 of 2020.........

........ugh..........

If I find a loving partner/best friend before I graduate I will probably not CTB but if they leave me I will

Happy New Year!

You have us. Remember that. My partner CTB on 8 December. I'm still here. One never knows! ;)

 

[JustAnotherSuicider]

Yea, same here. If I will found someone to pour my love on then I will put away my CTB plans. I just feel very strong desire to love someone, and to be loved. And I can't help it. Without it my life is just meaningless.

 

[Empty Smile]

I refuse to try and find a relationship. I don't want one. The last one I had, I ended it a week after it started. She didn't do anything wrong, but with the death of my gf 5 years ago, it's been a tough road for me and relationships.

And with no relationship going on, that's one less burden I have to deal with when the time comes.

 

[BPD Barbie]

I've cut 95%if people off now. It'll be easier for them and for me. I still care about certain people and watch and support from a distance.