JustKillBen22
Member
- Jul 6, 2020
- 56
I know I can't know until I'm up there, looking down, until I'm actually able to jump. I can say as much as I want to say beforehand but it's completely different to being there and feeling that both the pull and the push of that fucking jump. But it only has to happen once, and it will eventually happen, hopefully tonight, but I know that every time I've been up there I've hoped that beforehand. I just wanna make this post before I go in case I don't come back, because I will be going without my phone. I am hoping for eternal nothingness, peace away from this life, and my head and pain and anxiety, out of it all. If this is the end, and the last message many of you see from me, goodbye. Otherwise I'll be back here fucking tomorrow like a cowardly asshole. Time will tell, fuck my life.