patheticq

patheticq

Hung on you
Jan 16, 2024
19
I'm not really near nor talk to many (if any) people my age. Sure, I have my family; but that's it. They're just family. I only had my boyfriend and my friend of over a decade

Just for them both to leave at the same time. Ouch. Call it "teenage" drama, realizing I'm finally truly alone is heartbreaking. Having BPD isn't helping my case at all either, I just instantly self destruct because what else can I really do. I really want to buy SN but I haven't really understood any clues; I see them but I'm not sure what to do with the information
 
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Surai

Surai

Student
Mar 26, 2024
101
I have no one either. I am meant to die. I will kill myself in the most brutal of forms
 
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patheticq

patheticq

Hung on you
Jan 16, 2024
19
I have no one either. I am meant to die. I will kill myself in the most brutal of forms
I'm sorry you're going through this, it's awful. When the day comes to CTB I hope you can feel at peace ❤️‍🩹
 
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PinkChubbyBunny

Member
Oct 25, 2024
23
I have no one. No friends or family left.
The only person I loved and who loved me back is dead. They were the reason I tried to live.

Oddly enough, while they were alive, mentally it was kinda easier to commit to ctb.
I guess the feeling of not being alone in the world is empowering, even when it comes to ctb.
 
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SweetItalianS

SweetItalianS

Member
Aug 11, 2024
41
Hey pat, it is sad that you've lost your loved one and the best friend at the same time especially because you don't have many people around you. It is normal that you feel lonely and depressed because of that. I don't know your age so can't suggest places where you can meet peers, although such placed could be jobs-coworkers, if you like music - music festivals if you like some particular sport like soccer you can join an amateur team, you go onto an art workshop or just meet people online or in games. Hell you can even meet new people on this website, there is a thread dedicated to finding friends. I hope you'll be able to find someone to get close to or become friends! (personally sometimes I join roblox voice chat expirience that is 17+ and meet new people there LOL)
 
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Major Tom

Member
Feb 24, 2024
52
The worst thing is having a extroverted personality, which got taken away since age 6 through adderall adhd medication. Since then it gave me anxiety and turned me in to an introvert. Now I have poor social skills and no true friend group. But I accepted it until now, where I can't stand it being alone.

But there are apparently ways to make new friends with 23, even if its hard.
 
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patheticq

patheticq

Hung on you
Jan 16, 2024
19
Hey pat, it is sad that you've lost your loved one and the best friend at the same time especially because you don't have many people around you. It is normal that you feel lonely and depressed because of that. I don't know your age so can't suggest places where you can meet peers, although such placed could be jobs-coworkers, if you like music - music festivals if you like some particular sport like soccer you can join an amateur team, you go onto an art workshop or just meet people online or in games. Hell you can even meet new people on this website, there is a thread dedicated to finding friends. I hope you'll be able to find someone to get close to or become friends! (personally sometimes I join roblox voice chat expirience that is 17+ and meet new people there LOL)
I mean I'll admit, I go on roblox voice chat too LMAO but at most it just passes some time; no real "connection" but thank you for your message. This is probably the most comforting thing I've heard in a while 🫂
 
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SweetItalianS

SweetItalianS

Member
Aug 11, 2024
41
I mean I'll admit, I go on roblox voice chat too LMAO but at most it just passes some time; no real "connection" but thank you for your message. This is probably the most comforting thing I've heard in a while 🫂
You can ask cool people there if they want to be friends with you or like go and play some roblox horror games with them through discord, did that a couple of times and it was pretty fun, I'm happy to hear that you've found some comfort in my message :)

Btw if you feel lonely and want to chat about smth feel free to dm, I'm cool with sending messages to each other once a day or around that, no pressure
 
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brokeandbroken

Enlightened
Apr 18, 2023
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I'm not really near nor talk to many (if any) people my age. Sure, I have my family; but that's it. They're just family. I only had my boyfriend and my friend of over a decade

Just for them both to leave at the same time. Ouch. Call it "teenage" drama, realizing I'm finally truly alone is heartbreaking. Having BPD isn't helping my case at all either, I just instantly self destruct because what else can I really do. I really want to buy SN but I haven't really understood any clues; I see them but I'm not sure what to do with the information
I know the feeling i don't even have family im just someone no one's cares about.
 
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