meowme0w
Quadeca fan
- Jan 6, 2026
- 15
I really want to die. I was sort of trying to get help to try different meds for a bit, but the healthcare system sucks lol
My issue is that I really don't know what method to use...I want it to be as painless as possible. It would be nice if it was quick too, but I don't mind it taking longer as long as it's painless.
I was planning to take SN, but I just can't find it anywhere online, so I'm starting to give up on that...Same thing with something like helium. I really want to try out helium, but I can't find helium that's pure enough online. Everywhere that sells it, only sells it to organizations.
I don't think I can jump, because there aren't any high enough places that would be accessible for me. Technically, I could maybe use all my remaining money to take a trip somewhere with a place where I could jump, but i'm concerned that i'd have enough time to second-guess myself and get cold feet during the trip...Then it would just end up being a waste of money.
There are train tracks near me, and if i get desperate enough I could maybe consider laying my head down on the tracks and hopefully get decapitated by a train, but I'd really rather not do that, as I don't want to traumatise too many people with my death. I know I'll inevitably traumatise someone, that's just what dying in these circumstances does, but I'd rather die in the middle of nowhere and get found by one or two people, than die on train tracks and possibly be seen by a lot of people.
Hanging sounds very painful, plus I don't know where I could hang myself. I live with my family, and I'm almost never home alone, so I couldn't hang myself here.
A gun would be fucking awesome to have, but alas, I'm not american
If anyone has any feedback or ideas, I would greatly appreciate them
My issue is that I really don't know what method to use...I want it to be as painless as possible. It would be nice if it was quick too, but I don't mind it taking longer as long as it's painless.
I was planning to take SN, but I just can't find it anywhere online, so I'm starting to give up on that...Same thing with something like helium. I really want to try out helium, but I can't find helium that's pure enough online. Everywhere that sells it, only sells it to organizations.
I don't think I can jump, because there aren't any high enough places that would be accessible for me. Technically, I could maybe use all my remaining money to take a trip somewhere with a place where I could jump, but i'm concerned that i'd have enough time to second-guess myself and get cold feet during the trip...Then it would just end up being a waste of money.
There are train tracks near me, and if i get desperate enough I could maybe consider laying my head down on the tracks and hopefully get decapitated by a train, but I'd really rather not do that, as I don't want to traumatise too many people with my death. I know I'll inevitably traumatise someone, that's just what dying in these circumstances does, but I'd rather die in the middle of nowhere and get found by one or two people, than die on train tracks and possibly be seen by a lot of people.
Hanging sounds very painful, plus I don't know where I could hang myself. I live with my family, and I'm almost never home alone, so I couldn't hang myself here.
A gun would be fucking awesome to have, but alas, I'm not american
If anyone has any feedback or ideas, I would greatly appreciate them
