cobain43
Member
- Feb 16, 2020
- 14
Hi y'all.
My mom took her life this February. She took antidepressants after her hysterectomy since 2008. I myself survived cancer and I don't know, due to steroids which are cancer meds, I was irritable. We had some quarrel but reconciled later, and it was great. I had a breakup and I lived with my mom afterwards. We watched a movie everynight. Jan 31, I quarreled a bit because we had very little money for college and it is too expensive. She came to know that I was suicidal and a previous cocktail of medications I made did not kill me, but made me very ill. She OD'd that night. But my father was a very bad huaband. He did not hit her (I never saw him hit my mother) but was really really mean and he is a drunk and has a bad temper. I am really afraid of him.
I am not strong mentally and I decided to CTB best. I bought some SN. and I mixed it with water. The glass became cold. I was just about to drink it. But I stopped myself. But I don't wanna do that. I want to die in peace. I saw my best friends die, my first girlfriend die, my mom die and honestly, my mom was the only person who loved me. I also loved my aunt but she said that I was responsible for my mother's death. Maybe it is easy to pick on the weakest. Blame him and it makes you feel empowered.
Guys, I know that you are kind souls and many of your problems are graver than mine. But just suggest me something so that I can finally go through the process in peace. Please.
My mom took her life this February. She took antidepressants after her hysterectomy since 2008. I myself survived cancer and I don't know, due to steroids which are cancer meds, I was irritable. We had some quarrel but reconciled later, and it was great. I had a breakup and I lived with my mom afterwards. We watched a movie everynight. Jan 31, I quarreled a bit because we had very little money for college and it is too expensive. She came to know that I was suicidal and a previous cocktail of medications I made did not kill me, but made me very ill. She OD'd that night. But my father was a very bad huaband. He did not hit her (I never saw him hit my mother) but was really really mean and he is a drunk and has a bad temper. I am really afraid of him.
I am not strong mentally and I decided to CTB best. I bought some SN. and I mixed it with water. The glass became cold. I was just about to drink it. But I stopped myself. But I don't wanna do that. I want to die in peace. I saw my best friends die, my first girlfriend die, my mom die and honestly, my mom was the only person who loved me. I also loved my aunt but she said that I was responsible for my mother's death. Maybe it is easy to pick on the weakest. Blame him and it makes you feel empowered.
Guys, I know that you are kind souls and many of your problems are graver than mine. But just suggest me something so that I can finally go through the process in peace. Please.