trauma

[mimiopo22]

people with trauma, this thread is for you, to give voice to you. talk about your nightmare, let off steam, we listen to you.
(ps. writing the note is so tiring)

 

[WornOutLife]

I think I have more than one trauma but the most visible ones are:

-Bipolarity
-Extreme depression and anxiety
-Hate most humans
-Hate working
-Hate life
-Feel inferior because I can't comprehend why the hell we're here for and what the fuck the universe really is.
-Some other stuff.

 

[KuriGohan&Kamehameha]

I've had ptsd since I was very young from: sexual abuse, neglect as a child (especially malnutrition) bullying/discrimination in school and the workplace for my disabilities, physical abuse from a partner, being groomed, mental abuse from a partner as well as things like making me sit in a corner and not speak for hours or leave the room lest I would be punished, sexual abuse from medical professionals, gaslighting from medical professionals while they nearly killed me from medications, malpractice that gave me TMJ, therapist making fun of me for my disabilities and trying to "train" me to not act autistic, being stalked, being blackmailed and having photos of me leaked by the guy who groomed me, watching my father try to CTB with a gun, finding other family members when they were half dead from CTB, having my house robbed by my dad's drug dealer buddies in elementary school

My whole life is one big traumatic nightmare

 

[rabbithole]

I have medical trauma. A resident botched a lumbar puncture and left me incontinent, no sensation in "saddle" (anywhere that would touch a saddle is numb), and with nasty nerve pain. Already had trauma from being relentlessly bullied for a decade. Also have trauma from my two month stay in psych because I couldn't walk while there after the LP and I had never encountered so many deeply mentally ill people in one place and man some were very violent and nasty. Many were very sweet though.

I've had ptsd since I was very young from: sexual abuse, neglect as a child (especially malnutrition) bullying/discrimination in school and the workplace for my disabilities, physical abuse from a partner, being groomed, mental abuse from a partner as well as things like making me sit in a corner and not speak for hours or leave the room lest I would be punished, sexual abuse from medical professionals, gaslighting from medical professionals while they nearly killed me from medications, malpractice that gave me TMJ, therapist making fun of me for my disabilities and trying to "train" me to not act autistic, being stalked, being blackmailed and having photos of me leaked by the guy who groomed me, watching my father try to CTB with a gun, finding other family members when they were half dead from CTB, having my house robbed by my dad's drug dealer buddies in elementary school

My whole life is one big traumatic nightmare

Wth. I am so sorry life has been such a nightmare for you. Truly. I wish you peace. I hope you have a safe place you can retreat to in your mind or a physical place.

I have medical trauma. A resident botched a lumbar puncture and left me incontinent, no sensation in "saddle" (anywhere that would touch a saddle is numb), and with nasty nerve pain. Already had trauma from being relentlessly bullied for a decade. Also have trauma from my two month stay in psych because I couldn't walk while there after the LP and I had never encountered so many deeply mentally ill people in one place and man some were very violent and nasty. Many were very sweet though.

Wth. I am so sorry life has been such a nightmare for you. Truly. I wish you peace. I hope you have a safe place you can retreat to in your mind or a physical place.

Also nice username. I love dbz.

 

[mlmc045]

Firstly, sending love and light to everyone. I'm sorry life has treated you so terribly

I thought I'd share some of the things that have happened to me (which aren't even relatively that bad) but there's things I'm not ready to talk about (or even acknowledge). They have a habit of popping up in my mind, even if I don't want them to. I know you have to work through your traumas, but it's so chaotic and disruptive to everyday life. I was in therapy for a bit, and may give it another chance when I feel more ready if I don't CTB. I heard an interesting saying once, that people end up in therapy because the people in their life didn't and it's so true. I don't ever want to have kids so at least I can't traumatise them, but I do feel like I'm traumatising the people around me already, and would be better off gone.

 

[mimiopo22]

Do you who have trauma feel like rats in the sewer, dirty, social misfits, full of enormous discomfort?

 

[Meditation guide]

Do you who have trauma feel like rats in the sewer, dirty, social misfits, full of enormous discomfort?

No.

 

[mimiopo22]

No.

I do, perhaps because in my case I am the cause of my trauma and this is rare in trauma. or maybe I give too much importance to society. I do not know.

 

[mimiopo22]

can you interact with others? is there anything you like to do?

 

[Sherri]

I think I have more than one trauma but the most visible ones are:

-Bipolarity
-Extreme depression and anxiety
-Hate most humans
-Hate working
-Hate life
-Feel inferior because I can't comprehend why the hell we're here for and what the fuck the universe really is.
-Some other stuff.

Same answer in every way.

 

[Meditation guide]

-Hate most humans

Sorry about this! I kind of like you however.

 

[WornOutLife]

Sorry about this! I kind of like you however.

haha I like you too! Fortunately, you're not part of the "most humans" I hate!!