Story Trauma sucks

[Rosie88]

So I have been through my fair share of shit in my life. Being a trans woman has made things… more complicated, difficult. I don't really know anymore. It seems that no matter what I do I cannot escape depression or stress. I don't have funds to better my station in life or relocate to a safer place or to help either of my partners in their own troubles. Worse part is that I feel that I cheated both of them out of this stress because they said that I saved them. Had I never said anything to them they would be dead and no longer dealing with the shit around. I failed at everything, even killing myself. One jumping attempt, two hanging attempts, and two OD attempts and I'm still here…and it's even harder now to try to just put myself out of my misery now…I have a plan, a way to keep them from seeing me, but I'm just a coward now and I hate myself for it. All I still hear is my family pointing out that I can't do anything anything and I know that they are right

 

[joey2424]

Both of your partners are suicidal and they feel that you've saved them? That's beautiful, and I hope all of you find even more to live for.

You family tells you that you can't do anything? That is insanely traumatic. I hope you're able to get space from them over time.