Miserious
Member
- Jul 2, 2023
- 20
TW FOR PARENTAL ABUSE, SUBSTANCE ABUSE & BORDERLINE SA
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Hi. I'm 19, Transmasc and pansexual. My parents are both narcissistic, but my dad got addicted to opiods and after 17 years of physical and emotional abuse he was finally kicked out of the house. As such, my mom made me the new scapegoat, and is constantly threatening me, telling me she'll kick me out and burn my things in front of me, etc, all because I found happiness with a afab enby partner which is everything my mom hates.(homo+transphobic). She constantly insists I'm bi because she "doesn't want me dating any tranny", and misgenders/mocks me for being "gay" and wanting "boyish" things. When my friend bought me a binder, she pinned me to the wall and forcefully undressed me, praising me about how my 'body/breasts was beautiful and to not be ashamed of my body' while screaming. Wouldn't stop until I told her my bra was broken. Ever since, shes kept me at home, gaslighting and convincing me I owe her 500 dollars for a check that was MINE in the first place just because an insurance company wanted it, and she helped pay for the rest while reassuring me I could keep it.(how could I be so stupid?) 2 weeks later she demands it, and I had already impulsively spent it all due to my adhd, so she went ballistic saying she could call the cops on me for theft. I wanted to get a job to pay it off but shes refusing to let me get one, saying she needs me for babysitting my younger siblings and chores more, yet still holds the 500 over my head like a cartoon anvil. She doesn't even pay me/let me work for the 500 with my chores she piles onto me. My college starts in a month and I can't do my work in this environment as I failed my last semester. I tried starting a gofundme to help me pay her back so I could leave with ease but nobody noticed nor cared enough to donate. It shattered my hope. My partner says their parents are willing to take me in but since they live states away I'd have to get a job to get a plane ticket. On the 24th of this month, I am planning to pack my things into trashbags and move in with a friend, but with the 500 still hanging over my head I am terrified. I think I just need extra reassurance my mom wont find nor have the cops hunt me down.
(More info about the check:
the felony thing shes dangling above my head is, a insurance company paid for my dads disability while i was 17 for a year, and because of that the social security place gives my dad all the money they owe him+me when he first applied
It was my SS check, $4048, but the company wanted it, so my mom had to pay them back
I hit the limit on transferring money to her account at 3500, so she reassured me it was fine and shed use the tax return to pay the rest and said i could keep the rest
But 2 weeks later after i spent it all she demanded it back and when i said i didn't have it she said I could be charged for theft of tax or something similar, and that I'll have to pay her back before i even think of "leaving her like the using abusing bitch I am"
And she's not even letting me get a job
At all, coming up with every excuse to not let me work.)
I have video evidence of her behavior but I'm too nervous to share it. Because of what my moms done ive hurt myself with a box cutter and have considered suicide multiple times, yet I stay because the thought of seeing my partner again keeps me alive. I know I shouldn't let my life depend on one person and thats not what I'm doing at all, but imagining myself with them and proposing to them eventually keeps my spirit high enough to not walk into traffic.
Again, I think I am just asking for helpful words of emotional support for when I finalize my plans to run away(plus what to say to my mom, I want to leave her with a goodbye note explaining what i took and why+that I'll get her the 500).
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Hi. I'm 19, Transmasc and pansexual. My parents are both narcissistic, but my dad got addicted to opiods and after 17 years of physical and emotional abuse he was finally kicked out of the house. As such, my mom made me the new scapegoat, and is constantly threatening me, telling me she'll kick me out and burn my things in front of me, etc, all because I found happiness with a afab enby partner which is everything my mom hates.(homo+transphobic). She constantly insists I'm bi because she "doesn't want me dating any tranny", and misgenders/mocks me for being "gay" and wanting "boyish" things. When my friend bought me a binder, she pinned me to the wall and forcefully undressed me, praising me about how my 'body/breasts was beautiful and to not be ashamed of my body' while screaming. Wouldn't stop until I told her my bra was broken. Ever since, shes kept me at home, gaslighting and convincing me I owe her 500 dollars for a check that was MINE in the first place just because an insurance company wanted it, and she helped pay for the rest while reassuring me I could keep it.(how could I be so stupid?) 2 weeks later she demands it, and I had already impulsively spent it all due to my adhd, so she went ballistic saying she could call the cops on me for theft. I wanted to get a job to pay it off but shes refusing to let me get one, saying she needs me for babysitting my younger siblings and chores more, yet still holds the 500 over my head like a cartoon anvil. She doesn't even pay me/let me work for the 500 with my chores she piles onto me. My college starts in a month and I can't do my work in this environment as I failed my last semester. I tried starting a gofundme to help me pay her back so I could leave with ease but nobody noticed nor cared enough to donate. It shattered my hope. My partner says their parents are willing to take me in but since they live states away I'd have to get a job to get a plane ticket. On the 24th of this month, I am planning to pack my things into trashbags and move in with a friend, but with the 500 still hanging over my head I am terrified. I think I just need extra reassurance my mom wont find nor have the cops hunt me down.
(More info about the check:
the felony thing shes dangling above my head is, a insurance company paid for my dads disability while i was 17 for a year, and because of that the social security place gives my dad all the money they owe him+me when he first applied
It was my SS check, $4048, but the company wanted it, so my mom had to pay them back
I hit the limit on transferring money to her account at 3500, so she reassured me it was fine and shed use the tax return to pay the rest and said i could keep the rest
But 2 weeks later after i spent it all she demanded it back and when i said i didn't have it she said I could be charged for theft of tax or something similar, and that I'll have to pay her back before i even think of "leaving her like the using abusing bitch I am"
And she's not even letting me get a job
At all, coming up with every excuse to not let me work.)
I have video evidence of her behavior but I'm too nervous to share it. Because of what my moms done ive hurt myself with a box cutter and have considered suicide multiple times, yet I stay because the thought of seeing my partner again keeps me alive. I know I shouldn't let my life depend on one person and thats not what I'm doing at all, but imagining myself with them and proposing to them eventually keeps my spirit high enough to not walk into traffic.
Again, I think I am just asking for helpful words of emotional support for when I finalize my plans to run away(plus what to say to my mom, I want to leave her with a goodbye note explaining what i took and why+that I'll get her the 500).
