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cantdecidenameeven
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- Oct 2, 2024
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My mom paid for my surgery, got me a new guitar, cooks for me, pays for my education and takes care of almost everything for me to function
But she always downplays my emotions and whatever I go through
The 2 times I ever opened up to her ended up in mockery days later. Just yesterday she mockingly made fun of me talking about my depression and suicidal ideation. Also called me ugly few times. I asked her if she thinks that one girl thinks of me, she said no one ever thinks of you. As a joke maybe or as a sarcastic comeback idk but it still hit me like a truck
I wish she all bad, so I can hate her with good reason. But she is a great mom, but makes me hate myself. I don't know how to feel.
She showers me with love but drowns me in hate.
But she always downplays my emotions and whatever I go through
The 2 times I ever opened up to her ended up in mockery days later. Just yesterday she mockingly made fun of me talking about my depression and suicidal ideation. Also called me ugly few times. I asked her if she thinks that one girl thinks of me, she said no one ever thinks of you. As a joke maybe or as a sarcastic comeback idk but it still hit me like a truck
I wish she all bad, so I can hate her with good reason. But she is a great mom, but makes me hate myself. I don't know how to feel.
She showers me with love but drowns me in hate.