Some place nice
This world makes me sick
- Oct 18, 2023
- 468
Ya'know I was thinking, even of they didnt ctb I'd still be stuck with my mom. Still be going through the mental strain of being around her and making her angry when I dont feed her ego. Getting my hopes up to see my only living family member that I can express my love to, just for my hope to be crushed. My oldest friend finally answered back after a while but, I dont think that he'll recognize me anymore. I am afraid of being alone... I hate it so fucking much. If they ctb and left me alone ik I'd ctb but, it wouldn't be pleasant. I told them that they were my reason to live and if they leave me alone than I'd ctb. So I asked if when they want to ctb can I be there so I can as well and not be alone. They said yes. So that makes me feel a little better.
