Touch starved

[woofwag]

Not a lot of people in my life who I can actually hold rn. It feels bad. I think part of the reason I'm seeking out random hookups is just for a way to feel held again. I daydream about being cuddled. I want to feel safe enough to do that with someone and have it not be sexual. I must be too horrible to ever have that... I had it once, and I fucked it up because I always fuck up everything. Maybe I deserve this, and that's why it's happening, or maybe I am so ill that I push everyone away. No one wants to put up with me. Fuck, I want to cuddle someone again. This is fucked up. It shouldn't be this way. I shouldn't be this way

 

[a65b]

i feel you. i would give everything for a hug

 

[Cyc]

i feel you. i would give everything for a hug

Not a lot of people in my life who I can actually hold rn. It feels bad. I think part of the reason I'm seeking out random hookups is just for a way to feel held again. I daydream about being cuddled. I want to feel safe enough to do that with someone and have it not be sexual. I must be too horrible to ever have that... I had it once, and I fucked it up because I always fuck up everything. Maybe I deserve this, and that's why it's happening, or maybe I am so ill that I push everyone away. No one wants to put up with me. Fuck, I want to cuddle someone again. This is fucked up. It shouldn't be this way. I shouldn't be this way

I do the same, I often hookup or get into situationships for that reason. I feel similar to you, it's like everyone leaves me eventually cuz of fucked up I am

 

[kufajoy]

I need a hug too

 

[woofwag]

I do the same, I often hookup or get into situationships for that reason. I feel similar to you, it's like everyone leaves me eventually cuz of fucked up I am

Yep, they always leave :,) and it's my own damn fault too. I can't blame them for leaving someone so destructive, avoidant, and depressing to be around.