Venting Torture

[itsgone2]

It's the only thing I feared. The idea that humans were even capable of torture always bothered me.
Now I'm here, mostly mental torture, wanting to ctb to escape my problems. Most caused by me but also much out of my control. Everyone is similar.
The insomnia gives the physical component. Feels like my brain is bleeding.
Just venting. Living through constant torture is inhumane. I wish God would intervene, just take me in my sleep. Instead I also have to do this horrific act. Society could give us an easy way out. But no, they continue the torture instead.

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand as I also find it so torturous to exist, every second is torture to be conscious in this dreadful, cruel existence, it's just so horrific to me how existence causes all this suffering and torture with no limit as to how much agony one can feel.

To me existence truly does feel like the most terrible cruel mistake and I see so much terrible extreme cruelty in how many humans want to do all they can to prolong the suffering and torture of others no matter what, I always suffer so unbearably from being denied the option to cease existing painlessly so finally I can be at peace from all the suffering, denying painless death is such a terrible unacceptable crime to me, I hope you find the freedom you search for.