BlueWidow
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- Oct 6, 2019
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I just spoke to my niece, whom I hadn't spoken to in about 20 years, for the last 3 hours. We had a wonderful conversation and we talked about all kinds of stuff. The problem is, now I have yet another person who's going to be upset when I ctb.
I've been thinking about ideas for my goodbye thread and I have a bunch of stuff already planned out, but now I feel like my plans are being thrown in jeopardy again.
I know that if I don't do it on January 3rd, as I have been planning at this point, I can always do it later. But on the other hand, it makes me feel like I'm being too wishy-washy about it. I've already postponed my ctb once to avoid the holidays.
And if I don't do it in January, I might have to deal with some of my husband's family coming and possibly thinking they can stay in my house. I'll have to continue to deal with my sister-in-law pushing me to go to doctors about my thyroid when there's no point. And there's probably other things that I'll have to deal with that I don't even know about right now.
I am dead set that I'm going to ctb. I don't see any other way out, particularly where my thyroid issue is concerned. But if I gave myself a little more time and forced myself to have some motivation, maybe I could go through my stuff, as I originally intended, and start giving it away. I had hoped to do that this month so that I could give things away and people would just see them as Christmas presents. However, because of how exhausted I've been due to being dragged around to doctors and blood tests and so forth against my will, I haven't had the energy or motivation to go through any belongings or give anything away. I have some family photos that I had no idea what I was going to do with them, but my niece said that she would take them if I wanted to send them to her. She told me she wanted to send a card to me or something first and that would have her address on it. I gave her my address, but she didn't give me her address.
I'm torn because I feel like this is the best chance I've had in my whole entire life to ctb.
I don't want to miss my chance and end up stuck here. On the other hand, part of me doesn't feel like I've made enough arrangements or done enough with my belongings. I've also never done anything with my Will. I have a Will that I made when I was living in another state, but after I moved here, I intended to go to a lawyer and make sure it would be valid in the state I'm living in now. I never did do that because of my ongoing thyroid issues. I go back-and-forth between wanting to do something about it but not having the energy or motivation, and being overwhelmed by the prospect of all that work and effort and just thinking I'll let it go and let them sort it out.
I know if I want things to go where I want them to go, I'm going to have to give them away while I'm still alive. It's just going to take so much work to do it. I don't know what to do.
Again, I know no one can tell me what to do. I'm just venting and trying to weigh my options. Any comments are welcome though.
I've been thinking about ideas for my goodbye thread and I have a bunch of stuff already planned out, but now I feel like my plans are being thrown in jeopardy again.
I know that if I don't do it on January 3rd, as I have been planning at this point, I can always do it later. But on the other hand, it makes me feel like I'm being too wishy-washy about it. I've already postponed my ctb once to avoid the holidays.
And if I don't do it in January, I might have to deal with some of my husband's family coming and possibly thinking they can stay in my house. I'll have to continue to deal with my sister-in-law pushing me to go to doctors about my thyroid when there's no point. And there's probably other things that I'll have to deal with that I don't even know about right now.
I am dead set that I'm going to ctb. I don't see any other way out, particularly where my thyroid issue is concerned. But if I gave myself a little more time and forced myself to have some motivation, maybe I could go through my stuff, as I originally intended, and start giving it away. I had hoped to do that this month so that I could give things away and people would just see them as Christmas presents. However, because of how exhausted I've been due to being dragged around to doctors and blood tests and so forth against my will, I haven't had the energy or motivation to go through any belongings or give anything away. I have some family photos that I had no idea what I was going to do with them, but my niece said that she would take them if I wanted to send them to her. She told me she wanted to send a card to me or something first and that would have her address on it. I gave her my address, but she didn't give me her address.
I'm torn because I feel like this is the best chance I've had in my whole entire life to ctb.
I don't want to miss my chance and end up stuck here. On the other hand, part of me doesn't feel like I've made enough arrangements or done enough with my belongings. I've also never done anything with my Will. I have a Will that I made when I was living in another state, but after I moved here, I intended to go to a lawyer and make sure it would be valid in the state I'm living in now. I never did do that because of my ongoing thyroid issues. I go back-and-forth between wanting to do something about it but not having the energy or motivation, and being overwhelmed by the prospect of all that work and effort and just thinking I'll let it go and let them sort it out.
I know if I want things to go where I want them to go, I'm going to have to give them away while I'm still alive. It's just going to take so much work to do it. I don't know what to do.
Again, I know no one can tell me what to do. I'm just venting and trying to weigh my options. Any comments are welcome though.