An hero of our time
Не для меня
- Apr 17, 2019
- 34
It's 1pm here. Ideal time to go in nearby woods and try partial in some places i checked last time i walked there.
The wire i bought today must be good enough too. It's thin and soft. Doesn't damage my adam's apple like belts that i tried before. I even seen sparkles in my eyes when tried it on door knob, never experienced before with any other ligature. A little bit to stretchy though, i need to work around it.
But i feel like i'm pinned down too much. Or just too lazy. I want to smash things against wall, but i'm not doing it. Every time i fall asleep i hope that i wake up last summer, not next day.
Obviusly it's not working. I need to ctb in order to have the chance.
Why i wrote all of this nonsense? Honestly i don't know. Maybe venting like this just spends my energy which is in great demand.
The wire i bought today must be good enough too. It's thin and soft. Doesn't damage my adam's apple like belts that i tried before. I even seen sparkles in my eyes when tried it on door knob, never experienced before with any other ligature. A little bit to stretchy though, i need to work around it.
But i feel like i'm pinned down too much. Or just too lazy. I want to smash things against wall, but i'm not doing it. Every time i fall asleep i hope that i wake up last summer, not next day.
Obviusly it's not working. I need to ctb in order to have the chance.
Why i wrote all of this nonsense? Honestly i don't know. Maybe venting like this just spends my energy which is in great demand.
