Does anyone else get almost paralyzed with anxiety? The smallest things seem like insurmountable tasks. getting out of bed, taking a shower and even preparing to CTB just seem like to much trouble. My family does not understand that when they ask me to get help, or just suck it up and do it..they are asking too much sometimes....I truly just want to fall asleep forever...Why they hell are we prevented from this???
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chocolatebar
Paragon
- Jul 11, 2021
- 974
It's pretty common actually. That's why a lot of antidepressants report elevated risk of suicide as a side symptom.
I don't know if it brings you comfort, but you're definitely not alone in this.
I don't know if it brings you comfort, but you're definitely not alone in this.
Fadeawaaaay
Visionary
- Nov 12, 2021
- 2,160
Same. No energy for anything but sleep.
Hell yes. I always say there needs to be a different name for what I feel because it goes far beyond depression.
The other night I was sitting in my car trying to work up the energy to walk to my bed.
It was no more than 35 footsteps away but everytime I went to move, my body didn't follow.
I can do maybe one or two productive things a week. Trying to responsibly plan my ctb is futile.
I have a feeling I'm going to give up and just go off half-cocked (like I've been doing as of late) and mess myself up.
The other night I was sitting in my car trying to work up the energy to walk to my bed.
It was no more than 35 footsteps away but everytime I went to move, my body didn't follow.
I can do maybe one or two productive things a week. Trying to responsibly plan my ctb is futile.
I have a feeling I'm going to give up and just go off half-cocked (like I've been doing as of late) and mess myself up.
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 43,431
Maybe in my case it's not so much anxiety anymore, but it's rather the fact that I find everything to be so tiring. I see existence as being such a tedious burden that I despise and I have no energy for it. Pretty much everything just makes me feel even more tired and of course even planning to leave this world requires energy and at least to me suicide is complicated and risky as well, as the world that we exist in makes it as difficult for us to die as possible. I also just really wish to fall asleep permanently and be free from everything, that sounds so ideal. I see life itself as being the true problem and only death could ever be the solution for me.
Silent.Tears
Experienced
- Nov 5, 2021
- 282
A hundred percent! Every single thing feels a like chore. Learning a new life skill feels daunting.
Speaking of ctb, Researching suitable ctb method is overwhelming. Then there's all these minute aspects of each & every method, the necessary meds etc.
I just want to die, & like you said I wish it was as easy as just going to sleep.
Speaking of ctb, Researching suitable ctb method is overwhelming. Then there's all these minute aspects of each & every method, the necessary meds etc.
I just want to die, & like you said I wish it was as easy as just going to sleep.
spectraltease
When everything is lost everything is found
- Sep 23, 2022
- 317
Oh man, same. Today was so hard, i couldn't even take a shower and had to force me. I go now shopping and I feel so numb and empty. Got no energy
I know what you mean. I have same. Everything is overwhleming and exhausting. Even small thing to do is hard and makes me anxious. I spend most time sitting on sofa with my phone which angers my mrs. No energy to even try to spend some time with kids. Which in turn makes me even more depressed and wanting to go.
Anxiety, depression and PTSD all make my body freeze. It also sometimes make it impossible to think and I forgot what I'm supposed to do in the moment. Excecuting CTB and getting it right when your body feels physically stuck is the worst.
A hundred percent! Every single thing feels a like chore. Learning a new life skill feels daunting.
Speaking of ctb, Researching suitable ctb method is overwhelming. Then there's all these minute aspects of each & every method, the necessary meds etc.
Too depressed, even to CTB, is so ironic - in a sad way. But maybe it could also be a chance for you to recover. All the best!
yes, all those things require a lot of energy that i just don't have. all three threads recommended below this page have the same title. seems to be a common thing a lot of us have. it's a vicious cycle that as time goes on i just get further depressed and my life/future gets more and more ruined.
I can relate to so much of what's been posted here. And how to break the downward cycle...
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DrPhilm&m
Do you miss me, miss misery, like you say you do?
- Mar 11, 2023
- 10
Literally same man, I just wish I could slowly drift away into a painless, bittersweet, never-ending sleep on my own accord...
Yes, I live in bed when my anxiety and depression is awful. It's difficult to do any self care, clean, leave house, etc. I have to force myself to quite literally do anything at all IIalso have agorophobia
