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Margimet

Margimet

Member
Aug 31, 2019
55
Anyone else here is also convinced that is already TOO DAMAGED to get better someday with psychotherapy and medication?
 
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SHThrowAway213

SHThrowAway213

That's the hell I live with
Apr 19, 2018
658
Yes definitely
I'm already too fucked to live
 
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CarefulWithThatAxe

Experienced
Nov 7, 2019
296
Yes well past the point of repair now.
 
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Vanity

Vanity

complete Imbecile
Dec 2, 2019
27
not really.I went trough a lot of stuff and it just made me a worse person,not suicidal.
 
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KiraLittleOwl

Lost in transition
Jan 25, 2019
1,083
I don't know
Maybe a stellar therapist could help me
Medication doesn't help in my situation, I take SSRI, I just cry less
 
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Time

Time

Looking to leave.
Nov 10, 2019
264
Unfortunately. :aw:
 
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BPD Barbie

BPD Barbie

Visionary
Dec 1, 2019
2,359
Too damaged, too set in my ways, learned behaviours and coping mechanisms are hard to drill out of adults. Trauma, suffering, it's all I've known. When I've been in normal relationships I look for ways to create trauma becuase it feels normal and safe.
 
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MeltingHeart

MeltingHeart

Visionary
Sep 9, 2019
2,151
Anyone else here is also convinced that is already TOO DAMAGED to get better someday with psychotherapy and medication?
Yeah Totally
 
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dioxide

dioxide

Member
Dec 6, 2019
59
More days passes, more things i see around and more i am convinced that medicine is still at medieval era.

There are plenty of injuries or diseases where doctors just lift shoulders, say just to go home, rest wait and hope.

Spinal damages are quite hard to repair, and so easy to achieve.. there are plenty of bacterial or viral infections, they do not have minimal idea what they are or how to manage. A person just have to hope the body fixes somewhat alone.. or, for who have unlimited money, may keep trying, doing exam, medications, sperimental treatments, exams and more exam, but the point is the same. Just wait and hope.

Medicine is just a big money industry, it is designed to take money as longer as possible, not to find a cure there is not a fundamental interest in curing definitively a disease, instead.. keeping people under a load of medications, make really a big $$$ and who cares if someone have to pass all his life in pain and disability.
 
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R_N

R_N

-Memento Mori-
Dec 3, 2019
1,442
The irony is that my reason for ctb is being ruined by psych meds. Biggest reason is that I got severe insomnia and I refuse to watch my brain rot from not sleeping.
 
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Manja

Can't wait to die
Nov 27, 2019
182
Yes, FUBAR (fucked up beyond any repair or recognition, can't remember)
Incapable of learning from own mistakes, just circling in a vicious circle...kind of groundhog day
 
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Numbtopain97

Numbtopain97

deader than dead
Aug 10, 2019
443
Yes
 
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Foresight

Foresight

Enlightened
Jun 14, 2019
1,393
My damage is physical so it's easier to measure and yes, it's beyond repair and destroying any quality of life
 
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Hydrokhoos

Hydrokhoos

Member
Dec 1, 2019
68
Definitely
I exist purely out of spite right now and the amount of people that told me I couldn't succeed.
I can succeed and I will, but as soon as I'm done with this project I'm gonna ctb. I'm way too damaged to do anything else.
 
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Taki

Taki

Specialist
Jul 30, 2019
319
This is definitely me. Have know this for a while now. I only bother with my meds so I can leave the house to work. What a rich life.
 
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Nem

Nem

Drs suck mega ass!
Sep 3, 2018
1,489
Anyone else here is also convinced that is already TOO DAMAGED to get better someday with psychotherapy and medication?
Absolutely. A dr nearly friggin killed me a few years back, prescribed some shitty meds and after two days felt like hammered shit, was on hellcation with my ex and she demanded I keep taking them. Should've told her to fuck herself and left the hotel room never to return. That's the price to pay for dating a sociopath
Peace/hugs
 
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ObsessiveCompulsive

ObsessiveCompulsive

Member
Sep 26, 2019
52
100%, constantly asking myself what is the point? I'm already delayed as it is, people will still treat me like a punching bag.
 
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WilliamKline

WilliamKline

Flâneur
Sep 16, 2019
135
More days passes, more things i see around and more i am convinced that medicine is still at medieval era.

There are plenty of injuries or diseases where doctors just lift shoulders, say just to go home, rest wait and hope.

Spinal damages are quite hard to repair, and so easy to achieve.. there are plenty of bacterial or viral infections, they do not have minimal idea what they are or how to manage. A person just have to hope the body fixes somewhat alone.. or, for who have unlimited money, may keep trying, doing exam, medications, sperimental treatments, exams and more exam, but the point is the same. Just wait and hope.

Medicine is just a big money industry, it is designed to take money as longer as possible, not to find a cure there is not a fundamental interest in curing definitively a disease, instead.. keeping people under a load of medications, make really a big $$$ and who cares if someone have to pass all his life in pain and disability.

Spot on, the thing that bothers me most is the general conception is that medicine is incredibly advanced - as believed by the public and its practitioners.
 
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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
Jul 8, 2018
4,348
I'm sure I could get better but I can't afford the intensive therapy borderline requires. At this stage I just don't have any future so if I did heal I'm still 42 F and in poverty. Nothing to look forward to especially as it takes years of work to improve. If I could have been identified young and put into therapy right away it would have mattered but now? I missed out on having a life worth living and ready to be dead.
 
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Conker

Conker

Specialist
Oct 22, 2019
351
I realize that in some aspects my body is done for, but I still have faith that 1 day I will be able to feel a glimpse of joy again & ride that snowball out of this anhedonic pit.
 
Moonicide

Moonicide

ᴘʜᴀꜱᴇꜱ ᴏꜰ ᴛʜᴇ ᴍᴏᴏɴ
Nov 19, 2019
802
Yep. Been living with multiple mental illnesses for 15 years. In treatment, on medication, been to programs, and I'm on disability for it. I'm pretty darn damaged if you ask me.
 

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