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foggy
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- Mar 1, 2022
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I'm extremely suicidal. I've been planning this for a while. I planned to wait until June but it's bad rn. I don't have the option of being hospitalized for mh treatment nor do I want that. I didn't fast tonight but I think if I wait until the early hours of the morning I'll be able to use SN. I'm scared of the consequences of my actions. Will my friend kill himself? Will my sister be devastated? Idk and honestly I almost don't care. I'm very low right now and I just… I don't want to be alive anymore. I care about my family and friends but I don't know if I love them enough to live for them. Not when I'm suffering like this. That sounds terrible. I'm sorry. I want this all to be over.
Please don't judge me.
Please don't judge me.