Tomorrow

[NekoNomNom]

Tomorrow is the day, I suppose. I've been feeling and thinking a flurry of emotions this past week:
-Fear
-Anxiety
-Desperation
-Sadness
-Despair
-Regret
-Anger
-Worry

Just to name a few.

I've only one hope to pull through this, and he won't come near. He's abandoned me. I'm terrified.

I can't do this; but dying is so damn difficult. I've tried and failed many times.

I just want him back. I want things to be okay with us again. That's all.

Please...

 

[oneside]

I know all these feelings, it's really difficult living like this. I can only wish you luck. I'm trying to find my peace, I hope you can find yours too.

 

[WinterFaust]

I'm so sorry you're in so much pain. The feeling of being abandoned is awful and is honestly one of the worst pains I've ever felt. The absolute desperation to get that person back is unreal. I don't know what the situation is but my heart goes out to you. Is he truly your last hope?

We're here for you no matter what you choose

 

[Living sucks]

Why don't you try this? And just see what happens? No one is worth taking your life over. It doesn't remove the hurt, but in time it can hurt less and maybe there's a new love waiting in a different location?

I thought about doing the same thing. Packing up in the middle of the night. Not telling anybody. Change my number. I've got a few friends in a couple of different states who would take me in and keep my secret.

 

[NekoNomNom]

I know all these feelings, it's really difficult living like this. I can only wish you luck. I'm trying to find my peace, I hope you can find yours too.

Thank you. I'm going to try.

I'm so sorry you're in so much pain. The feeling of being abandoned is awful and is honestly one of the worst pains I've ever felt. The absolute desperation to get that person back is unreal. I don't know what the situation is but my heart goes out to you. Is he truly your last hope?

We're here for you no matter what you choose ❤

As pathetic as I may sound, yes. I've never, and I mean never, felt this way about a break up.

I don't know.

Why don't you try this? And just see what happens? No one is worth taking your life over. It doesn't remove the hurt, but in time it can hurt less and maybe there's a new love waiting in a different location?

Also, please make no mistake, this isn't my only reason for wanting to ctb; this is merely the breaking point.

 

[WinterFaust]

As pathetic as I may sound, yes. I've never, and I mean never, felt this way about a break up.

It's not pathetic, you're in a lot of real pain and distress. And I completely get that being the final straw. I'm sorry you're hurting like this.

 

[Lunarhour]

Fuck him. If he gets back with you and marries you and all that sunshine...how do you know he wont abandon you again?

His love for you is weak and he is probably turned off by your current disposition. A disposition that should be nurtured with peace, contemplation, reflection and exclusion of all the noise and anticipation of this world.

The chemicals in your brain are going ape shit right now, because your mate has vanished, and trust me my dear, as a red blooded male, i went fucking nuts when i lost my girl. You see, its a strong chemical that activates in the brain, an instinct that is very potent, so potent that you cannot ignore for a long time...Your immune system can actually get weaker, causing sickness to come at your doorstep.But it will...eventually...fade into nothing.

Your herd, your pack of loyal wolves, family members, friends, acquaintances...your boyfriend, are now dwindling. What a perfect time to actually see who is loyal to your cause, to see who thinks that you are worth it. You can believe their bullshit about you, you can believe your negative thoughts (Are your negative thoughts real? are they reality? are they really true?). Sink or swim, but there is no rush, much rest is needed.

 

[Alec]

 

[NekoNomNom]

Fuck him. If he gets back with you and marries you and all that sunshine...how do you know he wont abandon you again?

His love for you is weak and he is probably turned off by your current disposition. A disposition that should be nurtured with peace, contemplation, reflection and exclusion of all the noise and anticipation of this world.

The chemicals in your brain are going ape shit right now, because your mate has vanished, and trust me my dear, as a red blooded male, i went fucking nuts when i lost my girl. You see, its a strong chemical that activates in the brain, an instinct that is very potent, so potent that you cannot ignore for a long time...Your immune system can actually get weaker, causing sickness to come at your doorstep.But it will...eventually...fade into nothing.

Your herd, your pack of loyal wolves, family members, friends, acquaintances...your boyfriend, are now dwindling. What a perfect time to actually see who is loyal to your cause, to see who thinks that you are worth it. You can believe their bullshit about you, you can believe your negative thoughts (Are your negative thoughts real? are they reality? are they really true?). Sink or swim, but there is no rush, much rest is needed.

I will agree to disagree with you. There is a lot that has not been elaborated on. This is not the place for it.

If you're interested, I plan to make a more detailed post about my reasons for wanting to ctb, after I am settled in at the hotel tomorrow.

I appreciate you reaching out, and your genuine concern, though. Thank you.

 

[Lunarhour]

I will agree to disagree with you. There is a lot that has not been elaborated on. This is not the place for it.

If you're interested, I plan to make a more detailed post about my reasons for wanting to ctb, after I am settled in at the hotel tomorrow.

I appreciate you reaching out, and your genuine concern, though. Thank you.

I'm just speaking my mind because i have gone through a breakup myself...that was years ago now Nekonomnom. Yes it is probably a complicated situation and i am unaware of the specifics of your sufferings.

I'm just talking to you as if you and i are sitting at the edge of the bridge. Even when i look down, it looks tempting i must say.

I'm listening...

 

[NekoNomNom]

I'm just speaking my mind because i have gone through a breakup myself...that was years ago now Nekonomnom. Yes it is probably a complicated situation and i am unaware of the specifics of your sufferings.

I'm just talking to you as if you and i are sitting at the edge of the bridge. Even when i look down, it looks tempting i must say.

I'm listening...

Thank you. I'm exhausted just thinking about tomorrow, to be honest. I'm so close to the end, and I'm just...everywhere right now.

 

[itsamadworld]

This is the reason I just do not want to date anymore.....I just hang out with my ex bf in a loveless, but friendship way! I figure, it's better than nothing... Not that I have any real relationship advice! Cuz I'm 39, been married, divorced, thankfully. I guess it's just how I decided to roll at this point, cuz it's emotionally safer....but I'm not alone, but I am ....

 

[NekoNomNom]

This is the reason I just do not want to date anymore.....I just hang out with my ex bf in a loveless, but friendship way! I figure, it's better than nothing... Not that I have any real relationship advice! Cuz I'm 39. I guess it's just how I decided to roll at this point, cuz it's emotionally safer....

Oh man...I couldn't ever see myself not dating. That's not to say that I'll just jump into every random relationship. I've been single for extensive periods of time, etc. I am just very much a creature that's dependent on having somebody else; particularly my ex. It sounds asinine, but that's just how I am.

I'm glad that you've figured out what works for you, and that it does work for you. I do sometimes wish that that could be an option for me. But I know myself too well.

 

[Nolye]

Hi, Neko!

Whatever you decide to do, I'm here for you. I know how difficult it is, and I'm sorry you're hurting so much. I'm selfish in wanting you around a little longer, but I can understand the absolute pain you're living in. I hope you can be happy with your decision and I wish you nothing but peace.

 

[NekoNomNom]

Hi, Neko!

Whatever you decide to do, I'm here for you. I know how difficult it is, and I'm sorry you're hurting so much. I'm selfish in wanting you around a little longer, but I can understand the absolute pain you're living in. I hope you can be happy with your decision and I wish you nothing but peace.

Hey, you. I know I've said it a few times, but I'm so glad that we've met. It's been a real pleasure getting to know you--and everybody else on this forum, too. This place has been a haven for me, and I'm so glad to have been apart of it, even if it was just for a little while.

 

[Meowkin]

Tomorrow is the day, I suppose. I've been feeling and thinking a flurry of emotions this past week:
-Fear
-Anxiety
-Desperation
-Sadness
-Despair
-Regret
-Anger
-Worry

Just to name a few.

I've only one hope to pull through this, and he won't come near. He's abandoned me. I'm terrified.

I can't do this; but dying is so damn difficult. I've tried and failed many times.

I just want him back. I want things to be okay with us again. That's all.

Please...

Good luck. I hope you find peace.

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

Sending my love and positive vibes your way. Break ups are never easy and they hurt like hell.

Ultimately, it will be up to you as to what happens next, but if you feel that starting a new life may be worth it, it doesn't hurt to give that a try before completely giving in.

Either way, I'm sure most of us will support whatever decision you may come to. I am free to chat with any time you like or if you just need a friend. Feel free to say hello any time... I am usually lurking. xo

Best wishes to you, Neko!