Tomorrow is my end should I leave a note?

[Mytimeisup1]

Well everyone tomorrow I will take my journey. I just started in this group today but was already ready to go. I have my rope. I have my spot picked out in the woods next to a cemetery. I have a pretty good plan on a partial suspension. I plan on getting drunk beforehand and taking sleeping pills as well to ensure I don't get nervous. I am definitely ready but I am scared a little. I just hope that it goes as well as planned. I don't know weather to leave a note or not seeing im doing this in the woods. I really don't want to be out there too long without being found or I would rather not be found for a very long time. I am very torn. What do you think?


When I was with my ex I felt this way all the time. I worked all the time FOR HER and she just wanted everything but me I guess. I left her knowing she love me. Most of my family is dead so I just want to go home.

 

[fastFWD]

hey friend i'm sorry to hear things have not been well for you and it has come to this. with regard to the note i suppose it depends on how much time will pass from when you go through with this and when the note will be found. I guess a couple of additional options are (1) leaving the note on yourself and (2) mailing the note somewhere so it get delivered at a later date. i wish you the best of luck and i hope you find peace with whatever you decide to do.

 

[Mytimeisup1]

hey friend i'm sorry to hear things have not been well for you and it has come to this. with regard to the note i suppose it depends on how much time will pass from when you go through with this and when the note will be found. I guess a couple of additional options are (1) leaving the note on yourself and (2) mailing the note somewhere so it get delivered at a later date. i wish you the best of luck and i hope you find peace with whatever you decide to do.

I was thinking of mailing a note seeing I will not be easily found. I am not trying to have a funeral per say but do not want to be so far gone that I am unrecognizable. I want to be ok just in case..,,, My family is pretty much dead so im not worried about getting an open casket. Im asking to be cremated so im not a burden on my kids later in life. Not that my kids would even care too much. I haven't been the father of the year by any means. Thank you for responding though. I thought it was going to be another one of those wasted posts.

 

[fastFWD]

I was thinking of mailing a note seeing I will not be easily found. I am not trying to have a funeral per say but do not want to be so far gone that I am unrecognizable. I want to be ok just in case..,,, My family is pretty much dead so im not worried about getting an open casket. Im asking to be cremated so im not a burden on my kids later in life. Not that my kids would even care too much. I haven't been the father of the year by any means. Thank you for responding though. I thought it was going to be another one of those wasted posts.

yeah it sounds like mailing a note might be the better option if you are hidden well enough in the woods. as for your kids, you never know; sometimes it's hard for people to reach out and communicate their true thoughts about others... nevertheless, <3

 

[MAIO]

Well everyone tomorrow I will take my journey. I just started in this group today but was already ready to go. I have my rope. I have my spot picked out in the woods next to a cemetery. I have a pretty good plan on a partial suspension. I plan on getting drunk beforehand and taking sleeping pills as well to ensure I don't get nervous. I am definitely ready but I am scared a little. I just hope that it goes as well as planned. I don't know weather to leave a note or not seeing im doing this in the woods. I really don't want to be out there too long without being found or I would rather not be found for a very long time. I am very torn. What do you think?


When I was with my ex I felt this way all the time. I worked all the time FOR HER and she just wanted everything but me I guess. I left her knowing she love me. Most of my family is dead so I just want to go home.

Most people don't leave notes. I personally wouldn't bother with a note as people are just going to demonize you/not respect your choice regardless of what you say.

 

[LMFAO FOCKERS]

If you are going to be cremated then it doesn't matter when you are found, imo.

Personally I feel like notes are for unfinished business such as saying things to loved ones you didn't get to say while alive. I wouldn't use a note for explaining my reasons for death because people usually wouldn't understand or respect your explanation anyway, especially if they are not pro-choice.

You mention that you weren't father of the year. If there is something you want to say about that such as expressing love or regrets around that, its the only thing worth writing about. All else is useless imo.

 

[Mytimeisup1]

I live in Illinois (uS) but just moved back from Tennessee so I could just leave a note on the desk where I am staying. It would take them a few days to find it I would assume and could leave a message for my kids. I have a 23 year old daughter with kids of her own that I haven't seen but twice, but a note is better than her thinking she was a reason for my exit. I just don't want to have any wonder, for them, on why Im doing what im doing. Part of me though just says do what your gonna do and they can figure it out. Its not like they don't know that I am horrible with money and love to drink and party. I was a breakdancer for years and that took me to the club life where cocaine was always around and then Illinois made gambling legal in every bar so I started gambling away thousands of dollars a month. Im just a weak man that has lost all hope in life and love. Trust me its never ok to be alone or with someone that makes you feel alone,

If you are going to be cremated then it doesn't matter when you are found, imo.

Personally I feel like notes are for unfinished business such as saying things to loved ones you didn't get to say while alive. I wouldn't use a note for explaining my reasons for death because people usually wouldn't understand or respect your explanation anyway, especially if they are not pro-choice.

You mention that you weren't father of the year. If there is something you want to say about that such as expressing love or regrets around that, its the only thing worth writing about. All else is useless imo.

That is all I would want to say oviously

 

[Severen]

A thoughtful note expressing how much you love your daughter and that she is not the reason you CTBed would be nice for her, I think.

 

[LifeIsNotFun]

I would recommend leaving a simple note, and I wish you a peaceful journey. All the best. xx

 

[Mytimeisup1]

I would recommend leaving a simple note, and I wish you a peaceful journey. All the best. xx

Thank you. I am a little scared but I think I will soon be with my family. I will watch over everyone I can to help in any way I can. xoxo

 

[LifeIsNotFun]

Thank you. I am a little scared but I think I will soon be with my family. I will watch over everyone I can to help in any way I can. xoxo

Being a little scared is a normal response. But, whatever you do I hope you truly find all the peace you are looking for. xoxo

 

[Mytimeisup1]

I was with my ex for about 6 years. I stayed at home watching all of our pets ( small zoo, literally) and working about 70 hours a week and she was taking vacations all over the world. I quit managing restaurants to try to save my relationship but it was way too late. She would tell me why am I upset? I have everything that I need. I told her that was the problem. I did have my needs but had none of my wants and she had all of her wants but I wasn't included in those wants. This is the song I felt my life was based on and still feel it is.

Being a little scared is a normal response. But, whatever you do I hope you truly find all the peace you are looking for. xoxo

It is not on weather I do or not because it is happening. I have a shotgun just in case this doesn't work but I don't want tne mess of all that. I am done. This is it. I have family still here that I didn't want to feel the burden. That is why I asked if I should leave a note. 2 kids, 3 brothers, and 2 sisters that are still alive. I have lost my parents and 2 brothers already.

 

[Asta]

Wishing you a peaceful journey home.

 

[Soul]

Please don't mail the note - if something goes wrong or if you change your mind you won't be able to retrieve it. If you can leave it where you're staying that seems good; or scheduling an email to be sent a few days from now.

As others have said, notes for your children saying you love them and that there was nothing they could have done differently would be a meaningful gift to them. I would write one to each of them.

I'm very sorry you've been struggling so. Whatever you decide going forward I wish you the best possible outcomes. Journey well

 

[Kmf123]

A note for your children expressing the love you have for them. I'm sorry you feel this way but I hope you have peace whatever the outcome. All the best

 

[KovanK]

Hope you find peace.

 

[Final Escape]

This is so heartbreaking. Sorry you have to do this :( you seem like a really great guy.

 

[Mytimeisup1]

Well I woke up later today than I wanted. I am getting everything ready. I have already started to drink so the drunk part shouldn't be an issue. I am getting ready to shower now. I wish I had not lost my phone last week so I could listen to music but I am trying to figure something out. I appreciate everyone for their advice and safe travels. I will definitely try to watch over you all from the other side.This has been a long trying road that has finally come to an end. Wven though I am not a very religious person I prayed last night asking for forgiveness. Just trying to cover my bases. lol It seems most of you are in a completely different time zone so by the time most of you read this I should be gone. I will be leaving here to go to the graveyard in about 2 hrs.

I am very upset right now. I wish I had music to listen to while I do this. It is happening no matter what though. Thanks again all!!!! I have love for everyone here and know your pain and sorrow. Just give things a chance before you make the final final decision. It is too late for me. GODSPEED

 

[Loveandlight]

Please don't do this.

 

[Jen0804]

My heart is going out to you :(

Are you still with us?

 

[LonelyLight]

You really seem like a lovely person. I hope your family welcome you home with open arms. Bless you x

 

[KnightBlade]

I can really empathize with you regarding deceased family members. The family members who I was closest to are also long gone. If there is an afterlife, I hope you will be reunited with them.

 

[Macc Lad]

Thank you. I am a little scared but I think I will soon be with my family. I will watch over everyone I can to help in any way I can. xoxo

you won't be able to do that if there's no afterlife!