Venting Told a friend more or less that I'm planning to CTB.

[DrinkyCrow]

His response was basically just that his personal opinion is, that suicide is cowardly.
I basically just told him that im kinda thinking about to end shit if everything gets worse, which is a understatement but still, because i was drunk and high on different stuff and knew he wouldn't react in a way that could jeopardize my plans, but i really didn't expect that.
I really thought that he could maybe understand, but nah, he's one of those people who think being suicidal is a sign of weakness basically. Like bruh, I'm just done and i can't anymore, i tried and fought my battles for over 25 years, and you wanna say I'm a coward? Just because i can't deal with all that bullshit anymore and accepted the fact that im broken beyond repair?

Anyway, who cares. Moral of the story: even the most freedom loving/pro choice/(almost) anarchist friends, even those that suffer/suffered from depressions will not understand and in the worst case will say or do shit that makes stuff worse.

Apparently this is really one of the only places where you can find people that won't judge you.

Just wanted to vent and give y'all a reminder that it's most likely a bad idea to openly talk what's on your mind with most people.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Just wanted to vent and give y'all a reminder that it's most likely a bad idea to openly talk what's on your mind with most people.

At least when it comes to talking about suicide and that one is thinking about it.

 

[DrinkyCrow]

At least when it comes to talking about suicide and that one is thinking about it.

I don't think about much other stuff than this rn, makes it overall pretty hard to make conversation with people generally.

Even if my autistic brain is in a good mood, my interests are mostly pretty depressing for most people so now shit is just hardcore mode, even with friends.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Even if my autistic brain is in a good mood, my interests are mostly pretty depressing for most people so now shit is just hardcore mode, even with friends.

I understand that, but really good, true friends stick with you during the good and the bad.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

Some people just think we should accept and battle all adversity and challenges to the end of our days. And why should we, according to them? Because we just should. Fuck that.

What's the point of tenacity that doesn't lead anywhere and that doesn't bear any fruit? Sure, some people might be motivated by sentiments like "fuck you life, I'm not letting you drive me to suicide" and if they want to value tenacity solely for tenacity's sake, that is their prerogative. But I don't think choosing to forfeit a losing game instead of playing it to its natural conclusion reflects negatively on a person.

 

[Thisisme373]

I understand that, but really good, true friends stick with you during the good and the bad.

I agree with you and will also say those true friends are rare. Going through really bad shit you find out who are your true friends. Unfortunately found out quite a few of mine are selfish cunts who are not there for you in tough times. Same with family.

 

[Goose774]

His response was basically just that his personal opinion is, that suicide is cowardly.
I basically just told him that im kinda thinking about to end shit if everything gets worse, which is a understatement but still, because i was drunk and high on different stuff and knew he wouldn't react in a way that could jeopardize my plans, but i really didn't expect that.
I really thought that he could maybe understand, but nah, he's one of those people who think being suicidal is a sign of weakness basically. Like bruh, I'm just done and i can't anymore, i tried and fought my battles for over 25 years, and you wanna say I'm a coward? Just because i can't deal with all that bullshit anymore and accepted the fact that im broken beyond repair?

Anyway, who cares. Moral of the story: even the most freedom loving/pro choice/(almost) anarchist friends, even those that suffer/suffered from depressions will not understand and in the worst case will say or do shit that makes stuff worse.

Apparently this is really one of the only places where you can find people that won't judge you.

Just wanted to vent and give y'all a reminder that it's most likely a bad idea to openly talk what's on your mind with most people.

Yeah I don't get why people especially friends don't empathize more, it's actually disheartening.

 

[Gonnerr]

They don't understand the right to die yet. Its a very touchy subject so you never know what people will think.

Suicide is not a coward act, its very courageous to beat SI and when you do it , you go back to peacefulness. We all know that here.

 

[unnormal9]

His response was basically just that his personal opinion is, that suicide is cowardly.

He should look himself in a mirror that isn't shrouded with delusion and realize it's been right in front of him this whole time.
Takes a lot of strength to you know, die; if it was such an easy way out, flies would be dropping left to right.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I agree with you and will also say those true friends are rare. Going through really bad shit you find out who are your true friends. Unfortunately found out quite a few of mine are selfish cunts who are not there for you in tough times. Same with family.

I guess that was just the idealist in me talking. In reality, I do know better, too.

 

[unnormal9]

His response was basically just that his personal opinion is, that suicide is cowardly.
I basically just told him that im kinda thinking about to end shit if everything gets worse, which is a understatement but still, because i was drunk and high on different stuff and knew he wouldn't react in a way that could jeopardize my plans, but i really didn't expect that.
I really thought that he could maybe understand, but nah, he's one of those people who think being suicidal is a sign of weakness basically. Like bruh, I'm just done and i can't anymore, i tried and fought my battles for over 25 years, and you wanna say I'm a coward? Just because i can't deal with all that bullshit anymore and accepted the fact that im broken beyond repair?

Anyway, who cares. Moral of the story: even the most freedom loving/pro choice/(almost) anarchist friends, even those that suffer/suffered from depressions will not understand and in the worst case will say or do shit that makes stuff worse.

Apparently this is really one of the only places where you can find people that won't judge you.

Just wanted to vent and give y'all a reminder that it's most likely a bad idea to openly talk what's on your mind with most people.

Already know this. It's common sense. Suicide is a taboo subject, but I do it anyways because over here it isn't.

 

[FuneralCry]

I agree that it's a terrible idea to talk to other people especially about suicide, that person really sounds so ignorant and the fact is that no matter what nonsense insensitive people say, suicide is always a valid option, I think it's perfectly rational wishing to be free from all the suffering that existing brings.