Today's the day! (SN)

[VolatilePotato]

I got it and I'm going to CTB tonight. I've been preparing since last night knowing it was gonna be coming today.

Thank you everyone here, and to this forum for not judging, learning about others stories and methods, and being here.

If anyone wants to talk, I'm gonna try and speak through it as best I can as you guys at this point are the only place I feel comfortable. I'll be around until I do it tonight.

 

[LMLN]

I'm so sorry to see you go. We are here, even if you change your mind.

 

[I’mDone]

If you're 100% sure then I wish you a safe passage, and hope that you find peace. Happy to chat if you want to. Peace..

 

[Myforevercharlie]

Ill burn a little candle, hope it will guide you to love and peace...

 

[Donk]

have a peaceful journey

 

[Deathbydemo]

"Left this life to set me free....
Took a piece of you inside of me
All this hurt can finally fade
Promise me you'll never be afraid..."

Peace and love, my friend

 

[idontwannadothisanym]

I wish I could join you... have a peaceful passing.

 

[VolatilePotato]

I'm so sorry to see you go. We are here, even if you change your mind.

Thank you, that means a lot❤ I'll be here until probably later tonight/early Sunday AM. I'm gonna enjoy the day

 

[Nem]

I hope the best for you. May you have an anxiety free time during your decision regardless of what that may be
Peace/hugs

 

[Timetodie90]

Best of luck my friend. May you have a peaceful journey. Love and peace.

 

[LifeSucks39]

May you have a peaceful journey. I wish I could join you. I'll probably ctb later this year.

 

[yetme]

I got it and I'm going to CTB tonight. I've been preparing since last night knowing it was gonna be coming today.

Thank you everyone here, and to this forum for not judging, learning about others stories and methods, and being here.

If anyone wants to talk, I'm gonna try and speak through it as best I can as you guys at this point are the only place I feel comfortable. I'll be around until I do it tonight.

Whatever you choose we are here for you! if you need to talk feel free to PM!

if it's not too much of a bother please share your process with us! thank you and hugs!

 

[VolatilePotato]

Whatever you choose we are here for you! if you need to talk feel free to PM!

if it's not too much of a bother please share your process with us! thank you and hugs!

I will definitely try! I was planning on documenting it

 

[LMLN]

I will definitely try! I was planning on documenting it

That's very nice that you want to document it. But just make sure you are comfortable and taking care of yourself.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

Sorry to see you go

 

[x-Ace-x]

May the travel be warm and safe Wish you all the best to reach the peace you seek, no matter the decision, friend :)

 

[Idledays]

You haven't been on the forum that long - it's a shame to see you go so soon.

Remember you can change your mind, and you will still have a community here.

I'm really sorry that it has come to this, and for all of the pain you feel. This is absolutely your choice and your right but I noticed you had said in previous post (some weeks back now) you felt that you still had some hope to live, hiding in amongst the wish to die. Are you sure you have done everything you can follow that hope?

Remember there is no rush to CTB. The bus isnt going anywhere.

Whatever you decide, even though we seem faceless and nameless, we care. Wishing you peace and comfort. Reach out if you want.

 

[Rockman]

Good luck.

 

[Hopeindeath!]

I wish you peace.

 

[Living sucks]

What is your time frame?

 

[disabledandhopeless]

Hope it'll be peaceful for you

 

[RayoSinSol]

I hope you find peace.

 

[PickledTink]

May your journey be boring and swift. Peace

 

[Living sucks]

@VolatilePotato how are you feeling?

 

[VolatilePotato]

@VolatilePotato how are you feeling?

Still planning on going through with it...just wanted to make myself do some self care and feel good, release some stress. I'm ready. I'm a teensy bit anxious. But I'll be making a new post once I take the first dose

 

[Squiddy]

I wish you peace :) wish I could go through with it already

 

[kiera095]

I truly wish you the best.

 

[VolatilePotato]

Sorry I've made a few new threads. I'm going to be starting the process soon. Taking a stroll through the park one last time, get some fresh air, listen to some music. I made a playlist if you guys wanna check it out. Posted on the new thread but might as well post here:


Update: so I haven't eaten anything since about 3:45 pm. I had some water and watermelon brisk. It's my favorite. I ate a big mac and some fries cuz fuck it lol. What I'm planning on is doing the stat method and I converted the amounts to teaspoons and oz. Is about 1 teaspoon and a quarter. Water I'm doing about 3.5 oz. I'll make 3 glasses and once I get inside from my walk (about 10 minutes) I'll make and drink the first if 3. I plan to go through taste and sensation but I imagine it wont be terrible. I'm taking 400 mg of seroquel. Dont have meto or the other med, gonna most likely vomit, but as long as I get to the second glass I should be good.
First dose done. It's pretty salty. But literally just like drinking salt water. Did 20 gram (4 teaspoons) in 100ml. No gag reflex. Slight burn but nothing super uncomfortable

 

[acidic--angel]

found your tiktok and just wanted to say you are genuinely funny and kind! thank you for being so open in your journey and i hope you find the peace you're looking for. all the best to you on your journey

 

[Living sucks]

UPDATE he made a 3 rd thread and posted there that he drank it.