Today was different

[the_world_is_on_fir]

For the first time, today i didn't think about my trauma and i didn't feel suicidal. I was happy. Then i saw a picture that reminded me why i wanted to end myself. It was like destiny i guess. And now I'm here having trouble to sleep, and thinking about how i might end myself while i know that i will never do that because im a fucking coward and that I'll never heal so i will live miserable for all my fucking shitty life.

 

[thefarter]

it's okay to see something that reminds you of your desire to kill yourself.

although once you see it and have those feelings you should try to remove the image.

you can heal!! you should try starting cbt or alternatively dbt. they are both types of therapies. they might really help you.

also, try journaling. getting your thoughts out on paper really helps if you're overthinking and unable to shut your mind off and fall asleep.

also!!!!! puzzles and podcasts, bro. it's kinda funny how good they work together. you can kinda half-zone out and work on the puzzle while still listening to the podcast. it's super fun. i recommend emergency intercom

pls dont give up. and you're not a coward. you are contemplating suicide.. that just means you are probably feeling very very low, hopeless, alone.

u needn't feel alone btw. i am here if you want to talk ever. :3c