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yo_no_soy_el_pollo2
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- Dec 29, 2021
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I've hit my limit. I was hoping to stick around a bit more to try another new medical treatment or two, but I just can't stand another day like this. I have my N (and SN as a backup).
I have booked a hotel for 5 nights starting today. The reason I'm doing it for so long as that I CANNOT AFFORD TO FAIL. I know that in all likelihood, 1 or 2 days would be enough. But there are still scattered reports of people being in a coma for a while. I figured that after 5 days I wouldn't have enough water and would hopefully die from that if nothing else.
I do feel bad for the hotel staff, and I have an envelope with some cash I will put a note with on a table. Hopefully it will make their day ever so slightly better.
Here's a brief history about what lead me to using N:
1. I started out with the idea of using metal/foil dryer exhaust tubes from the exhaust pipes into my car, and going the CO method. I later abandoned that idea as apparently new cars filter out a lot more CO before it would otherwise be exhausted.
2. I then looked into the CO charcoal method in the car. I got one of those 10,000 ppm CO measuring device. There were a couple of reasons I didn't like this idea. I'd first have to start the charcoal on fire outside, which may bring the attention of the neighbors. Especially if they see me take them inside when they are still burning. Also, for the sake of those who I leave behind and have willed my house and car to, I didn't want to degrade those assets by having been involved in a suicide. Both for resale value, and if they should choose to use the car and/or house as their own.
4. Going the SN route seemed significantly better. With this, I could go somewhere (like a hotel) away from my house and car. I was pretty set on SN until I read this thread: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/can-we-talk-about-pain-from-sn.84378/#post-1507562
5. After that, I decided to try and get N. Luckily D was fairly responsive (I think I got a reply after a day and after btc payment was received, it shipped with a day and arrived with a couple more). For me, the whole process was well under a week if I am remembering correctly. I still have my SN. If some really unlikely thing happens with N failing, I can fall back to SN.
I also briefly considered the night-night method as a backup, but from what I can tell, there doesn't seem to be any documented success cases using it.
So far today I took my normal meds and light breakfast. I have also taken a few meto, zofran, and 2mg lorazepam for nerves. I was a bit nauseous in the morning, which is really common for me. Check-in time is in about 3 hours. Now I have to find something to do for those few hours.
I have booked a hotel for 5 nights starting today. The reason I'm doing it for so long as that I CANNOT AFFORD TO FAIL. I know that in all likelihood, 1 or 2 days would be enough. But there are still scattered reports of people being in a coma for a while. I figured that after 5 days I wouldn't have enough water and would hopefully die from that if nothing else.
I do feel bad for the hotel staff, and I have an envelope with some cash I will put a note with on a table. Hopefully it will make their day ever so slightly better.
Here's a brief history about what lead me to using N:
1. I started out with the idea of using metal/foil dryer exhaust tubes from the exhaust pipes into my car, and going the CO method. I later abandoned that idea as apparently new cars filter out a lot more CO before it would otherwise be exhausted.
2. I then looked into the CO charcoal method in the car. I got one of those 10,000 ppm CO measuring device. There were a couple of reasons I didn't like this idea. I'd first have to start the charcoal on fire outside, which may bring the attention of the neighbors. Especially if they see me take them inside when they are still burning. Also, for the sake of those who I leave behind and have willed my house and car to, I didn't want to degrade those assets by having been involved in a suicide. Both for resale value, and if they should choose to use the car and/or house as their own.
4. Going the SN route seemed significantly better. With this, I could go somewhere (like a hotel) away from my house and car. I was pretty set on SN until I read this thread: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/can-we-talk-about-pain-from-sn.84378/#post-1507562
5. After that, I decided to try and get N. Luckily D was fairly responsive (I think I got a reply after a day and after btc payment was received, it shipped with a day and arrived with a couple more). For me, the whole process was well under a week if I am remembering correctly. I still have my SN. If some really unlikely thing happens with N failing, I can fall back to SN.
I also briefly considered the night-night method as a backup, but from what I can tell, there doesn't seem to be any documented success cases using it.
So far today I took my normal meds and light breakfast. I have also taken a few meto, zofran, and 2mg lorazepam for nerves. I was a bit nauseous in the morning, which is really common for me. Check-in time is in about 3 hours. Now I have to find something to do for those few hours.