Today I Stood At My Jump Spot Looking Down Just To Get A Feel.

[MicropBaldCurrycel]

It was actually scary looking down, i was afraid to fall and felt dizzy which is dumb since its my jump site for ctb.

I just went up there as sort of a practice and to feel the height.

I thought it would feel good and easy.

It was HORRYFYING.

I think most jumpers dont think they just jump and what happens happens.

im gonna have to just go up there and just do it without thinking.

When i was up there i started shaking and fearful to fall, i guess its a natural response but those who choose this method are really desperate like me.

I just gotta not over think it too much.

 

[AloneInCollege]

What kind of spot is it?

 

[AnneRee]

It was actually scary looking down, i was afraid to fall and felt dizzy which is dumb since its my jump site for ctb.

I just went up there as sort of a practice and to feel the height.

I thought it would feel good and easy.

It was HORRYFYING.

I think most jumpers dont think they just jump and what happens happens.

im gonna have to just go up there and just do it without thinking.

When i was up there i started shaking and fearful to fall, i guess its a natural response but those who choose this method are really desperate like me.

I just gotta not over think it too much.

Where is it ?

 

[MicropBaldCurrycel]

What kind of spot is it?

its a high building with access to the roof via stairs and concrete below

Where is it ?

its a high building with access to the roof via stairs and concrete below

 

[piger]

When you go back for real how do you think you'll hype yourself up?

 

[MicropBaldCurrycel]

When you go back for real how do you think you'll hype yourself up?

im just gonna jump without thinking about it , try and dive head first maybe running start.

 

[piger]

im just gonna jump without thinking about it , try and dive head first maybe running start.

realistically that is the only option, waiting only leads to potential interference and hesitancy.

 

[MicropBaldCurrycel]

realistically that is the only option, waiting only leads to potential interference and hesitancy.

100 percent

 

[AloneInCollege]

Do make sure that you don't hit anyone at the bottom.

 

[MicropBaldCurrycel]

Do make sure that you don't hit anyone at the bottom.

im gonna do it at like 4am or so on a weekeday when everyones asleep and i will check before jumping yes thanks i did take that into account as well so thats why i chose a quiet time.

 

[AnneRee]

its a high building with access to the roof via stairs and concrete below

its a high building with access to the roof via stairs and concrete below

I totally understand how torn you must be feeling - I stood at beachy head in Uk about 17 years ago just willing myself to jump but just couldn't do it for fear - it was terrifying! Now I regret not doing it and can't get there again or anywhere - I really hope you find some relief soon from your pain

 

[MicropBaldCurrycel]

I totally understand how torn you must be feeling - I stood at beachy head in Uk about 17 years ago just willing myself to jump but just couldn't do it for fear - it was terrifying! Now I regret not doing it and can't get there again or anywhere - I really hope you find some relief soon from your pain

thank you

 

[FuneralCry]

Jumping does sound like such a terrifying method. I know that I could never be able to ctb that way. I do envy those with the courage for it, those who go through with it must certainly be desperate. I wish you relief from suffering.

 

[Lost Magic]

See if you can get some pills like propranolol and benzos to make you less afraid.

 

[MicropBaldCurrycel]

Jumping does sound like such a terrifying method. I know that I could never be able to ctb that way. I do envy those with the courage for it, those who go through with it must certainly be desperate. I wish you relief from suffering.

thank you

See if you can get some pills like propranolol and benzos to make you less afraid.

thank you i will look into it

 

[london3]

thank you

thank you i will look into it

I think survival instinct is so strong in humans that it is nearly impossible to jump for some people. Fear and terror will start making your whole body shake and your mind starts racing looking into the abyss.

For some people though it is a bit like exposure therapy, where each time they go to the location fear gets less and less and courage increases as they get familiar with the location.

Also i feel if you spend too much time thinking before jumping you start to back up and have regrets so it is easier just to quickly do it.

Make sure it is high enough and that you try and land on your head.

How many feet is it? Any reports of people jumping successfully?

 

[MicropBaldCurrycel]

I think survival instinct is so strong in humans that it is nearly impossible to jump for some people. Fear and terror will start making your whole body shake and your mind starts racing looking into the abyss.

For some people though it is a bit like exposure therapy, where each time they go to the location fear gets less and less and courage increases as they get familiar with the location.

Also i feel if you spend too much time thinking before jumping you start to back up and have regrets so it is easier just to quickly do it.

Make sure it is high enough and that you try and land on your head.

How many feet is it? Any reports of people jumping successfully?

yes you are right survival instinct kicks in, i could actually feel it even though i wasnt going to CTB at that moment, my mind made my body be extra careful and feel dizzy and want to step back.

the top is like 10 floors sorry idk that in feet but it was quite high and scary.

 

[london3]

yes you are right survival instinct kicks in, i could actually feel it even though i wasnt going to CTB at that moment, my mind made my body be extra careful and feel dizzy and want to step back.

the top is like 10 floors sorry idk that in feet but it was quite high and scary.

Have a look at this link

Jumping off a high building | Lost All Hope: The web's leading suicide resource

Don't commit suicide without reading this site! Lost All Hope has information on everything from drugs and drop hanging to suicide statistics.

lostallhope.com

According to the website it needs to be minimum 150ft on land and 250ft on water to be minimum 95% fatal. Each story of a building is different height so to get the 150ft maybe 15 stories is better to be sure?

Also they do state landing on your head is very important as some people have even survived but with bad injuries from a lower height.

So yeah basically the higher the better and land on your head

 

[MicropBaldCurrycel]

Have a look at this link

Jumping off a high building | Lost All Hope: The web's leading suicide resource

Don't commit suicide without reading this site! Lost All Hope has information on everything from drugs and drop hanging to suicide statistics.

lostallhope.com

According to the website it needs to be minimum 150ft on land and 250ft on water to be minimum 95% fatal. Each story of a building is different height so to get the 150ft maybe 15 stories is better to be sure?

Also they do state landing on your head is very important as some people have even survived but with bad injuries from a lower height.

So yeah basically the higher the better and land on your head

but it does seem high enough and it was so hard to find a good spot .
il try take a pic next time.

 

[london3]

but it does seem high enough and it was so hard to find a good spot .
il try take a pic next time.

OK

I just do not want you to suffer if it is not high enough. 10 stories should be enough but it is always better to go the extra step to make sure.

Could you find out the height of the building perhaps? from building plans, local government etc

This would give me more reassurance that it is high enough and at least 150ft.

 

[MicropBaldCurrycel]

OK

I just do not want you to suffer if it is not high enough. 10 stories should be enough but it is always better to go the extra step to make sure.

Could you find out the height of the building perhaps? from building plans, local government etc

This would give me more reassurance that it is high enough and at least 150ft.

im not sure where to find that but i can try.

should i find another building? maybe in the city centre? i chose this one as its close to my house for conveniece.

 

[london3]

im not sure where to find that but i can try.

should i find another building? maybe in the city centre? i chose this one as its close to my house for conveniece.

Try and find the tallest building you can that you can easily access without being stopped.

I think also being close to your house might make you feel guilty and think about your life.

If you are in an unfamiliar location you will not get reminded of your family etc as much and may find more strength to actually jump.
@MicropBaldCurrycel

Have you thought about taking anything to calm yourself physically? People drink alcohol, take medicine like Diazepam etc

By being physically relaxed with medicine etc can also make the decision easier and make your mind a bit calmer if your heart is not beating fast and your muscles are relaxed etc.

 

[MicropBaldCurrycel]

Try and find the tallest building you can that you can easily access without being stopped.

I think also being close to your house might make you feel guilty and think about your life.

If you are in an unfamiliar location you will not get reminded of your family etc as much and may find more strength to actually jump.
@MicropBaldCurrycel

Have you thought about taking anything to calm yourself physically? People drink alcohol, take medicine like Diazepam etc

By being physically relaxed with medicine etc can also make the decision easier and make your mind a bit calmer if your heart is not beating fast and your muscles are relaxed etc.

yes that sounds good maybe il drink alot before

 

[TheLastFemaphrodyke]

It was actually scary looking down, i was afraid to fall and felt dizzy which is dumb since its my jump site for ctb.

I just went up there as sort of a practice and to feel the height.

I thought it would feel good and easy.

It was HORRYFYING.

I think most jumpers dont think they just jump and what happens happens.

im gonna have to just go up there and just do it without thinking.

When i was up there i started shaking and fearful to fall, i guess its a natural response but those who choose this method are really desperate like me.

I just gotta not over think it too much.

I am so sorry that your life has been such shit that you would rather leave this life by such a horrifying incident. My heart to you.

 

[MicropBaldCurrycel]

I am so sorry that your life has been such shit that you would rather leave this life by such a horrifying incident. My heart to you.

thank you

 

[Dark Window]

Did this guy jump? I look through his posts, his name is crossed out but no goodbye thread.